Still sick..but getting better...

I think it runs in the family.. My cousin was back yesterday.. although he told me he would be back on 29th.. but then he told me he was wrong..
I told him that I'll leave on 30th.. but then I told him I was wrong.. I'll leave on 31st..
We do have problem with remembering dates.. hahaha

Anyway.... I'm getting better.. although not fully recovered.. but I don't have fever anymore..
Since I told my cousin I'm sick... I still have cold though.. and cough a bit..
He made soup for me.. awwwww.. I'm so touched..

What am I doing?? I should start packing stuff..

P.S. : I really am a procrastinator...-_-;;

Merry Christmas..*cough..cough..sniff..*

It's second day of Christmas.. so I'm wishing everyone a very merry Christmas.. How was your Christmas? Hope it was a lot better than mine..

So.. I spend my Christmas eve alone.. went to the church all by myself.. I really missed my mom at that time.. and I knew that my mom was sick.. she got a really bad flu.. :(

On Christmas day.. I woke up in the morning and I was like.. "this can't be happening to me.. esp. not today.." I got a really bad sore throat.. and I really needed my voice.. and my head hurt so bad.. I couldn't even get up.. It even hurt when I coughed.. my first thought was.. I got freaking flu..
Question.. is it possible that my mom infected me via text message?? yea rite...
But then I managed to get up and get ready..
And of course I gave my best to sing.. oh come on.. I've been practicing for like 2 months? I couldn't give up just because of my freaking sore throat..
In the end.. I couldn't reach the high notes.. but surprisingly.. I could reach the low notes that usually I couldn't.. hahaha..
And I stayed until late even I wasn't feeling so well.. I even took picture with "Afgan".. kyaaaaaa... Afgan.... (I'm in my 2nd year of my uni but still fan-girling..WTH??)

And today.. here I am lying on my bed with 38°C fever and writing these things..
I really should sleep now...

P.S.: I want my mommy!!! T_T

My grown-up Christmas list..

I really love this song.. I've heard this song since last year.. but I never get tired of this song.. I really love the lyrics..
Here's the lyric.. I really wrote the lyrics when I listened to this song..
I know.. I can just google it... but since I was a little girl I like to write the song lyrics.. while I was listening to the song..practicing my listening skill.. hehehe..

My grown up Christmas list
Michael Buble's version

Do you remember me?
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you with childhood fantasy
Well, I'm all grown up now
Can you still help somehow?
I'm not a child, but my heart still can dream

So here's my life long list
My grown-up Christmas list
Not for myself, but for a world in need

No more lives torn apart
That wars will never start
And time would heal all hearts
Every man would have a friend
That right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown-up Christmas list

What is this illusion called the innocence of youth?
Maybe only in that blind belief can we ever find the truth...

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
Every man would have a friend
That right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown-up Christmas list
This is my only life long wish
This is my grown-up Christmas list..



Credit: theMONhead

P.S.: Happy sing along everyone..!! Please do tell me if I made mistakes with the lyrics..

walk the tightrope and then fall..

You Should Walk the Tightrope

Any subject you study, you aim to master. You enjoy being the best. When you're good at something, you like to show off your skills. You're the type of person who would practice years to walk the tightrope. And you'd love the glory you'd get from walking it in front of a crowd.

What Circus Act Should You Perform?

P.S.:"Time is a circus, always packing up and moving away."~Ben Hecht~

Before I go to sleep..

You Are Flannel Pajamas

You seek comfort above everything else. You rather feel good than look good. You are a very relaxed person, especially when you're surrounded by your favorite things and people. You are a homebody. Home is the place where you can truly be yourself. You are likely to wear pajamas a lot. In fact, you often change into your pj's the minute you get home!

What Kind of Pajamas Are You?

P.S.: I'm off to bed..

Happy world AIDS day...

I have physical chemistry 3 exam within 9 hours..
and look what I'm doing..
yes..way to go!!!!

FYI.. today is world AIDS day...


Do you guys wear a read ribbon??
I do.. I have a read ribbon on my bag.. and I'm proud of it..
I always want to be a volunteer in AIDS campaign activity.. really.. I wanna get involved in AIDS campaign..
does anyone know how? please let me know..
I attended once AIDS seminar when I was in high school.. and I think it was interesting..
I knew more about HIV and AIDS..

What is HIV? HIV stands for Human Immunodeficiency Virus. The virus attacks the immune system of the body until the body cannot fight off diseases. When it has reached this point..it is considered that the person is developed AIDS. So.. HIV and AIDS are not the same..

really.. I shouldn't do this.. did I mention that I have exam within less than 12 hours???

P.S. : I'm so gonna CRAFT (Can't Remember A Freaking Thing) tomorrow...

saying good bye to organic lab..

today is my last day of organic lab..
I don't know what I'm feeling... relieved? happy?
I might sound crazy.. but I think I'm gonna miss it..
I'm gonna miss the boring time when I had to heat my mixture for 5 freaking hours..
I'm gonna miss doing the distillation, recrystallization...
I'm gonna miss the disappointment when I didn't get my product..
I'm gonna miss how I was so freakin' irritated when I had to work with bromine..
I'm gonna miss the smell of bromine..
I'm gonna miss how I was so scared and stressful when I had oral test..
I'm gonna miss how I got so confused with the spectrum..
I'm gonna miss the hectic time when I had to write lab reports..
I'm gonna miss how happy I was when my NMR spectra showed that I got the product and it was clean..

Speaking of NMR spectra.. I got lost again today after delivering my NMR sample to the NMR people downstairs.. hahaha..
I've already got lost twice in one day last week.. hahaha.. that's so typically me..
I get lost easily..

Ou.. yesterday.. one of the assistant said something that made me speechless..
assistant: I think you have the product..well done!
me: (speechless)
It was the first time someone said well done to me for sumthing I do in lab..
I'm kinda proud of myself tho..
and once again today.. I got pretty clean products.. although I'm pretty sure the yield is not that good..

well..it's over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my organic lab is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now I have to write 4 freaking lab reports in English.. aaaaaaaaaa.........

my last experiment involved this..

I stayed until 7:30 pm because of this..

P.S. : “A moment lasts all of a second, but the memory lives on forever.” ~unknown~

I'm running out of time..

for real.. I feel like time is really a sprinter..
I only have 2 days left.. then my organic lab is gonna be over..
and I have less than 1 week to cram all those electrochemistry things into my head..
I still have to write 4 lab reports.. and in English.. which I have never done it before..
I still have 2 exams waiting for me in 2 weeks..
see.. I'm really running out of time..
but what the hell am I doing rite now?
yes.. updating my blog..
way to go!!!

P.S. : “Time is like a handful of sand- the tighter you grasp it, the faster it runs through your fingers” ~unknown~

totally tired..

09:00 am
The professor was talking.. It was raining outside.. I was sitting inside.. nice and warm.. I didn't pay any attentions.. I was staring at the rain.. daydreaming..

09:55 am
The professor was still talking.. It was still raining outside.. I was still sitting inside.. nice and warm.. I still didn't pay any attentions.. I was watching the clock.. yawning..

10:30 am
The weird tutor was writing on the board and talking at the same time.. I was copying what he was writing without trying to understand..

11:10 am
I was on my way to organic building.. preparing myself for the hell hours in lab..

05:05 pm
I had an oral test with one of assistant..my last one.. suddenly stuck in a bad situation..

05:55 pm
I was standing in front of the rotary evaporator.. trying to remove the freaking diethyl ether from my substance.. I was thinking whether I should go to maths lecture or not..

07:05 pm
I left my lab.. went down to grab my jacket..

07:40 pm
Finally.. I was home..

P.S. : "Rivers know this: there is no hurry. We shall get there some day." ~Winnie the Pooh~

Exhausted..

Monday..... 7:15 pm
Tuesday..... 6:30 pm
Wednesday.....(which is today) 7:35 pm

The times when I left my lab..

P.S.: "Our fatigue is often caused not by work, but by worry, frustration and resentment." ~Dale Carnegie~

I'm alive..

Yes.. it's me.. I'm alive... hehehe..
Nothing happened.. well.. I let Christian do it first tho.. haha.. thx Christian..
but for real.. I was like so worried.. what if I didn't add enuff sodium disulfite.. what if it would really explode..what if.. what if..
well.. here I am...writing.. I'm okay..I'm okay.. hahahaha
My mom is finally flying back to Indo.. yuhuuu...
She's so happy.. she really wants to go back to Indo.. hahaha..
Lately I feel so terrible.. I really become a super freaking lazy person.. well.. I am lazy.. but really.. I'm super duper freaking lazy lately..
I don't have any motivations.. I don't really care anymore.. it's like that I don't give a damn on my study anymore.. wonder why?
I just feel I've reached my limit already.. I've had enough with the whole study things.. I'm sick of studying..
I'm bored with my life..

P.S.: “Are you bored with life? Then throw yourself into some work you believe in with all your heart, live for it, die for it, and you will find happiness that you had thought could never be yours” ~Dale Carnegie~

Boom....!!!!!!

Phew.. things always don't go as I have planned.. does it happen to everyone? or is it just me?
So.. I really wanted to finish my experiment today..
but what can I do... sumthing happened.. and I can tell you it's not a good one..
here's the thing.. my mixture happened to be really dark brownish.. I dunno why.. my friend's is a bit dark yellowish.. he has the same experiment too..
So.. we have to add sodium disulfite to the mixture.. to deactivate the freaking bromine.. we have to add it until the color of the solution doesn't change anymore..
my freaking solution is already dark brown.. how the heck am I supposed to know it does change or not???????
and here comes the interesting part..
if you add it too much..sulfur dioxide gas might be developed when I give acid to the solution.. which is the next step..
but.. if the sodium disulfite is not enough.. the bromine might react with ether,which I will use for separating the product, and form HIGH EXPLOSIVE peroxides..
Nice.... -_-;
I would say.. I'll go with the first option.. I've spent 20 years of my life in Jakarta anyway.. I believe I've inhaled sodium dioxide before.. from the emission of the vehicles in Jakarta.. hehehe..
well.. let's see what will happen tomorrow.. will I explode my lab??

P.S. : “To achieve great things, two things are needed; a plan, and not quite enough time.” ~ Leonard Bernstein~

Yummieee...muffins..

You Are a Cherry Muffin

You are very friendly and sweet. You love to socialize. You have a bit of a fire in your heart, and you secretly love adventure. You are well known for speaking your mind. You tell people exactly what you think. However, you're so nice when you're honest, no one really cares! Even though you're down to earth, you're not exactly the girl or guy next door. You are actually quite worldly and sophisticated. You are well traveled and well read.

What Kind of Muffin Are You?

P.S.: I wanna bake muffins..

Just keep waiting..

So.. not much happened today.. I mean.. I only had to wait for my reaction..
I had to heat the mixture for 5 freaking hours.. all I could do is waiting.. and waiting.. and waiting..
I even got the chance to have coffee break.. twice....
but in the end.. I needed more time.. So the assistant told me I could do it in her lab.. so I did it..
I was finished at 7 pm.. now I'm so freaking tired..
I haven't done my homeworks.. I haven't learned for my oral test tomorrow..
and now here I am.. telling all these stories.. yea rite.. way to go Meta!!
I keep asking myself.. why.. why do I study chemistry?? whyyyyyyyy?????
But actually.. I really can't believe it.. that I can make it this far.. I mean.. I'm in my 4th semester already.. I'm proud of myself..
In the other hand.. I don't feel like I'm a 4th semester student.. I feel like I can do nothing.. really.. I really feel like I haven't learned a single thing.. I still don't understand a lot of things.. (deep sigh) -_-;

P.S. : I'm going to see Keane tomorrow..

My cute monster..

What Your Cute Monster Says About You

You are a simply happy person. You still view the world with a childlike innocence. You have an easy going attitude, and you value harmony. You love freely and inspire others to love. You inner demon is frailty. You are easily beaten down by life. People think you're cute because you are optimistic. Your outlook on life is charming.

The Cute Monster Test

P.S.: Somehow it's true.. but I don't think I'm optimistic..

I got you under my skin..

yea rite.. whatever that's supposed to mean..
So..here's the thing..
I've been listening to this DBSK lately.. surprisingly..
They just released their new album.. it's called Mirotic.. and it happened to be their first single from the new album also..
Somehow the song keeps playing in my head..
Here's the video..

credit: sujudbskfan

However...I just found out that Sarah Connor also just released her new album.. I don't know much about her..
Anyway.. her single is called Under My Skin..
Here's the video..

credit: vanie33233

What I'm trying to say is.. it's the same freaking song.. I'm not gonna talk about plagiarism or anything.. I'm sure there must be an explanation about this.. Honestly I don't give a damn..
I'm just wondering.. which one do you like better??
I'd say I like the boys' version better.. from the voice.. the music video.. although I really can't stand the boys' wardrobe.. what's with the too much exposure of the body???? and the bling2??
To all Sarah Connor's fans out there.. no offense guys.. it's just a matter of taste.. ^_^

P.S. : Today I saw 17 people (18 including me) who wore converse chuck shoes.. aaah.. I'm in love with converse..

It's all because of bromine..

Bromine..what is bromine actually?
Why do I have to work with bromine?
Why am I always in bad mood everytime I have to work with that?
And guess what.. I still have to deal with the freaking bromine again..
Aarrrrggghhh...
Gosh.. why does the experiments look so complicated??
Really.. I don't think I can make it..
Why am I so pessimistic?
Really.. I'm so freaking stressed out..
I only have 3 weeks left.. and I still have 3 or 4 experiments..or 5?
What should I do???
You know what.. I do feel studying chemistry is such a huuuuuuuge mistake.. esp. for a clumsy and freaking slow person like me.. -_-'

P.S. : “An optimist is a person who sees a green light everywhere, while a pessimist sees only the red stoplight. . . The truly wise person is colorblind.” ~Albert Schweitzer ~

So little time so much to do..

Here are some things that I should (or must) do..

1. Listen to Keane..I have to get to know their songs.. or else I'd look like an idiot standing in their concert.. only knowing "everybody's changing"
2. Write lab report.. the due is like on next Monday..
3. Try to learn chemistry in English.. starting next week the assistants in charge only speak English..
4. Prepare the things I need for exchange.. (speechless)
   

P.S.: Why do I have a feeling that I won't be able to finish all my experiments within 3 weeks?

I'm tired..

I'm tired of my so-called-life..
I'm tired of waking up in the morning..
I'm tired of sitting in U-Bahn..
I'm tired of listening to lecture..
I'm tired of spending hours and hours in lab..
I'm tired of doing the whole experiments..
I'm tired of working with hazardous, inflammable, carcinogen substances..
I'm tired of writing lab reports..
I'm tired...

P.S. : “I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.” ~Fannie Lou Hamer~

I'm in a deep confusion...

So.. I am really in a deep confusion..
About the exchange thing.. I think I'm not gonna do it.. at least to US..
Maybe to Australia.. but I don't know..my mom offered me something really interesting..
She finally let me fly back to Indonesia..
this offer made me so confused.. I really want to go back to Indonesia..
I dunno.. I can't think clearly rite now..
Lately I feel like I don't know myself anymore..
It feels like my soul is taking a time off.. it's flying somewhere else..leaving my body all by itself..
There must be something really wrong with me.. but I just don't know what it is..

Yesterday I went out for lunch with Nita and Rafe.. We had sushi.. since I was craving for Japanese food.. We ended up in Hugendubel..
On the way home.. me and Nita had a so-not-important-discussion.. Nita insisted me to say "Duh?!" over and over again.. she wanted to know the rite intonation.. what the??
This kind of thing makes us really get along.. She told me..she would practice at home.. well.. I just wish her brother a lot of luck.. hehehe..

P.S. : Ou..Ou.. Today Sandra and Denio are saying the infamous 2 words.. "I do"... Congratz guys!!

Happy birthday sis...

Today is my sis' birthday..
Happy Birthday sis...
although I cannot be there.. I did send u a birthday card..
I had to pay 4 freaking bucks.. If the postman messed up.. I'd beat him up!!!


Since it's my sis b'day.. let's talk a bit bout her.. She's my only one sister.. we're five years apart.. although she doesn't act like she is 5 years older.. most people say that we're look alike.. We rarely fight.. maybe when we were little, we did fight..
we share stories..gossips.. secrets.. (well.. at least I think we share secrets..or maybe it's just me who keeps telling her my secret??)
I still remember that when she was still in Indonesia.. I was still in my 2nd year of high school back then..
we did hang out a lot.. We went to the mall.. had lunch.. went to movies without knowing which film we should see..
What I miss the most is.. We used to go to Planet Hollywood like a lot.. having dinner.. with my cousin or her best friends.. or even with my mom..
Aaaaah.. those days.. I really miss those days..
One time we (my sis, me, and 2 of our friends) went to this Cosmo Girl of the Year event.. we had the chance to meet this guy..Jonathan Frizzy.. so my sis voluntarily took our picture with him.. although we said.. we could ask other people to take it so that she could also be in the picture too.. and she was like.. "oh no.. it's fine.. " after we said thank you and stuff.. my sister was like.."wait.. now it's my turn.." what the...???? so..we had group picture.. and she was alone with the guy.. nice one sis..^_^'
I guess I have to stop here.. I can write a lot about her.. hehehe..

P.S. : “For there is no friend like a sister, in calm or stormy weather, to cheer one on the tedious way, to fetch one if one goes astray, to lift one if one totters down, to strengthen whilst one stands.” ~Christina G. Rossetti~

Shake it off..shake it off...

I'm not a fan of Agnes Monica.. but I do really think she did a great job in Asia Song Festival 2008..
This performance is freakin' awesome..
I watch this like over and over again.. but never get tired of it..
I can't believe I'm gonna say this.. (take a deep breath...)
I'm proud of her!!!! She rocks!!!

credit: blastoop
P.S.: The song keeps playing in my head, although I don't really understand what she was saying..^_^'

Is there really a pumpkin latte?

You Are a Pumpkin Latte

You are always up for a celebration. You are a very festive person. You look forward to every holiday, and you are nostalgic for good times after they're over. You appreciate the small things that make life special. You love little treats. You often look at the world with childlike wonder. There's so much to enjoy!

What Flavor Latte Are You?

P.S.: I want my tall soy latte..

sleepless nights..

I'm sick.. I have cold and a bit of sore throat.. I couldn't sleep well at night.. The first night was really bad.. I'm used to sleep without noises.. but here.. people's walking noise could wake me up.. and maybe it was because of jetlag too... Then last night.. my sis called me at 3 am.. just to tell me sumthin that I already knew.. I could barely remember what she said actually.. hahaha.. Hopefully I can sleep like a baby tonite.. I really need a good peaceful sleep..


P.S. : "Sometimes the most productive one can do is to sleep." ~unknown~

Counting the hours..

I'm flying back to Berlin tonite..
I'm flying back to my boring life..
I'm flying back to reality..

I feel so sad..
I feel so miserable..
I am scared..

Why is it so hard to leave?
Why is it so hard to face that my holiday is over?
Why is it so hard to get back on track?

P.S.: "Those to whom we say farewell, are welcomed by others." ~unknown~

Another joke..

credit: bursaartis

cinta.. so you've learned how to lip-sync..but please..stop touching ur mic.. it won't fall dear.. we all know that you were lyp-syncing anyway..

P.S.: Dammit! The song keeps playing in my head...

we love goofing around..

P.S. : "A sister is a little bit of childhood that can never be lost." ~Marion C. Garretty~

so many questions...

I've been thinking a lot these days.. about many things..
so many questions popped up in my head..
about student exchange.. should I really do it? or at least try? and where? us?
and then.. I keep wondering.. if this is really what I want to do? or to be? in Germany? study chemistry?
the more I think about it.. I'm getting more and more confused..
and as always.. I don't get the rite answers..
even when my mom asked me..what I will do after I graduate..
I couldn't give her an answer..
being a chemist?? what do actually a chemist do?? spend the whole life in lab??
really... what will I do after I graduate??
well.. after I get my friggin' bachelor degree.. I think I will continue study.. and get a master degree.. rite???
but then?? what should I write in the occupation column? chemist? scientist? researcher?
what if I don't want to?
Am I wrong if I do something else that is not related to chemistry??
Is it okay if I want to be a designer??
Is it okay if I want to be a stylist??
Is it okay if I want to be a photographer??
so many questions yet no answers..

P.S. : "He who asks a question is a fool for five minutes; he who does not ask a question remains a fool forever." ~Chinese proverbs~

The freaking TOEFL

Aaaaaaaaaaaaa......
I have my TOEFL test tomorrow..
I'm dead..I'm dead.. (panic mode on)
Although I don't have that kinda pressure.. I'm still stressed out.. well.. I have to get 100 points.. but I mean it's ok if I don't get 100.. it's not the end of the world.. it only means that I cannot apply for exchange.. but my mom said it's ok..
the weird thing is.. I'm not that excited anymore with the whole exchange things..
but still.. I'm freaking out.. for real..
aaarrrgghh.. I can't think..
why do I have bad feelings??
I should sleep now..

P.S.: Wish me luck..!!! All I need is luck.. really.. -_-'

My mom is here...

Yippie.. my mom is finally here... she came on Saturday..
she brought lotsa lotsa things.. as in clothes and foods... ou.. kue cucur!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it was supposed to be cleaning day.. so we kinda sped up so that we could dig in those clothes..
I have to admit.. they were like a lot.. I don't think I need to buy clothes for the next 2 years..or 3.. but I still need jacket and coat tho.. ou.. and shoes.. hehehehe..
the problem is.. I really don't know when I should wear them.. well.. I'll figure out later.. Maybe I leave some of them here...

So.. on Friday we went to Cheesecake Factory.. finally.. yuhuuuu... and I had my first cocktail..legally.. the food was great.. we also bought cheesecake.. it's not official until I eat the cheesecake.. there's still one in the fridge.. it was sooooooo good.. I could eat the whole slice by myself.. even 2.. but for the sake of my diet.. hahahaha.. we always eat it together..

TOEFL is coming.. dammit!! I'm dead..I'm dead... is there anyone out there who wants to lend me his/her English ability just for one day..just for 4 freaking hours???? pleaseeee...pleaseeee... I'm begging you...

P.S.: It's getting colder and colder each day.. Is summer over already???

my so-not-busy-weekend..

It was a quite normal weekend.. we went grocery shopping.. and of course we stopped by to buy bubble tea.. then we had brunch.. we made typical american breakfast.. bacon, sausage, and waffle with strawberry butter.. we went to the movie.. We saw Journey to the Center of the Earth.. in 3D.. it was ok.. I mean it was fun watching film in 3D.. although.. the kid behind me said that it was the best movie ever.. hihihi..
On Sunday we went to the church in the morning.. then.. off we went to Indonesian restaurant "Jayakarta" in Berkeley.. yippie.. I really miss Indonesian food.. We had even already thought of what we would eat since the night before..
We had pempek palembang and siomay bandung as appetizers.. then I had bakwan malang and es doger.. yummm.. my sister had nasi rames and nasi bungkus for my bro in law..
Ou..ou.. We also had nasi goreng ikan asin plus pete.. and mie tek tek.. (take away) huaaaaaa... I wanna go to Indo..!!!!!!!!!
I just realized it's almost 9/11.. I saw this movie called United 93.. it is named after the flight that was hijacked and supposed to hit the white house.. but the passenger fought back..so it didn't hit the White House but in the end it crashed somewhere.. it was so sad..
in conclusion (effect from toefl learning) it was an ordinary weekend.. but it was still fun..

P.S.: I demand kue cucur from my mom!!!!!

one busy long weekend..

Yes.. I did have one busy effective weekend.. it's labor day on Monday.. (September 1st) and also a friend of my sister came..it's my sis' high school friend. he said he wanted to refresh his mind.. should I say his name? well.let's just call him Mr. B...

So I had neighbor for 4 days..it meant that I had to share bathroom.
FYI..because of his existence I was having trouble with my stomach.. u knoe.. the business in toilet..
hahaha.. so.. here's what we did when he was here..

Thursday
Mr. B came.. we had a chit-chat thing.. well not we.. they did (my sis, her husband, and Mr. B). After having dinner we went to..err.. BevMo or sumthin'..to buy some wine and beers..
When we were ready to pay.. Mr. B did sumthin' hilarious.. He pushed the wrong cart.. but when he realized it was not ours. He just said.. "hey.. this is not ours" in a-so-not-guilty-tone and left the cart there and went to find ours.. my sister and I were laughing so hard.. I mean.. it can happen to everyone.. but the funny thing is that he just said it in flat tone. Then we went to the supermarket next to BevMo.. Smart and Find or sumthin'.. My sister wanted to take a look.. since it's just opened.. we wanted to buy oranges also.. Mr. B took one orange..but my sis said.. "we can't just buy one orange?".. but then in the end.. we only buy 2 oranges.. hahaha.. I knoe we're such a weirdo.. So we went home.. and my sis had to show Mr. B the way.. here's the so-not-important-conversation between them..
My Sis: Left!! Left!!
Mr. B: How? It's right turn only!!!
Then we played Taboo.. My sister was dying to play Taboo since I was here.. but it needs 4 people.. I guess.. na ja.. It was freaking funny.. since it was our (Mr. B and I) first time playing it..
We were laughing until our stomache hurt.. My fave part is the drawing... hihihi.. unfortunately we lost.. I teamed up with my sis..

Friday
Since my sis and my bro in law worked.. so Mr. B and I went to book store.. Mr. B has this reading-addiction lately.. hihi.. good for you! OMG.. I'm dying to read Midnight Sun..
Then we had lunch in Korean restaurant.. guess what.. I knew most of the songs which were being played there.. hahaha.. I guess I'm quite addicted to korean music lately..
we ordered pizza for dinner.. and we played Taboo.. again.. but this time I teamed up with my bro in law.. We won!! It was still fun.. The part that we had to explain the word using the purple doll was pretty hard.. you have to use your creativity..

Saturday
We played mini golf today.. It was my first time playing mini golf.. it was really fun actually.. but thanx to the freaking sun.. it was sooooooooooooooooo hot.. that was the reason why I was cranky.. I hate being exposed to the sun.. although my name means sun.. but..me and the sun.. it is really not a good idea.. I feel like biting people when the weather is too hot..
ou..ou.. another so-not-important-conversation between my sis and Mr. B
Mr. B: I'll give you 50 bucks if you can do hole in one
My sis: (Hit the ball.. and she did it!) ==> I'm pretty she didn't know what on earth hole in one is.
Mr. B: ...(speechless)

After one long hot day.. we went home.. took a nap.. getting ready for karaoke nite.. yuhuuu!!!
It was really fun.. except for the part that I was being scolded by my bro in law.. -_-'

We ended the day with dinner in PPQ.. we had to wait for 1 hour or so tho..


Sunday
We went to the church in the morning.. then had lunch at home.. we still had the crab and pizza leftovers.. the we went bowling.. I didn't play tho.. My sis did pretty good at the 1st round.. but not at the 2nd. Hehe.. Then we went back home.. we needed to get ready for tonite's dinner.. (we as in me and my sis).. It was my first fine dining experience.. yuhuuu.. we went to Le Colonial in SF..


Dammit.. the food was awesome.. for me the dessert was the highlight.. hehehe..

look at the hearts..

then my sister wanted to take a walk in Union Square.. we took some pictures..since we don't have that sophisticated camera.. the pictures are not that super sophisticated.. ?????


So.. that was my busy long weekend..

P.S.: Happy Labour Day!

Dimsum and hiking in one day..

Yesterday we went to San Francisco.. We were having Dim Sum in Ton Kiang. It is said that Ton Kiang is the best Dim Sum in SF.. well.. define the best.. I haven't had Dim Sum like for ages..so.. I don't give a damn wether it's the best or not.. hahaha...

After that thousand calories intake we went to Muir Wood. We went hiking for about 2 hours or so.. It was tiring.. really.. Does that mean we did burn our calories from our dim sum already? ok..just pretend we did.. ;P

Then we went to.. I forgot the name of the place.. there we can see the Golden Gate bridge from above.. not from heaven.. (ok.. it's not that funny.. sorry!) It was foggy.. I think it made the Golden Gate even more pretty.. So the upper part of the Gate was covered with fog.. It was freakin' cold up there.. I guess it was because of the wind.. dammit.. I don't think I will look good in the pictures.. I haven't seen them.. but I'm pretty sure I won't look good.. We only stayed for a while there..

Next stop... Kara's Cupcakes Finally.. I had my first real cupcakes..with the frosting stuff.. yippie!!! And I finally ate carrot cake.. I've been craving for carrot cake since like I dunno.. looooong time ago.. it's not my fave tho.. it tastes like carrot.. hello? that's why it's called carrot cake...hahaha..

P.S.: I'll upload the pictures later when I've found out how to resize them.. Here are the pics..

crazy about bubble tea...

You Are Bubble Tea

You are playful, sweet, and light hearted. You almost always have a smile on your face. You don't take life all that seriously, and you're always up for some laughs. You are very modern. You are up on the latest food, fashion, and entertainment trends. You are open minded and open to new experiences. Finding new things to love is a minor obsession of yours.

What Kind of Tea Are You?

P.S. : Ok.. now I'm so craving for bubble tea.. I'm so gonna drink lotsa bubble teas here...

My first cupcakes..

Yeay...finally I made cupcakes.. well.. without the frosting..my sis said that it would be waaay tooo sweet.. plus we didn't have the ingredients either.. but whatever.. my first cupcakes.. yeay..

yummieee....

So.. this is why I'm getting fatter and fatter each day.. hahaha..
and the supermarket here is like.. I'm quite speechless..
I have never seen the whole aisle full with ice creams.. or snacks.. u know.. chips.. cookies.. and what so ever..
remember the whole diet plan before going to Hawaii that I mentioned before??
it's all ruined..hahaha...screw diet!!!!

I'm still trying to focus on my toefl learning.. my cousin also had toefl test.. and he said it was freaking difficult.. OMG.. I'm dead..I'm dead...

P.S.: "A balance diet is a cookie in each hand" ~unknown~

Let the holiday begin..

After a long flight.. chaos in Frankfurt.. finally I arrived safe and happy..yippie..
My flight was ok actually.. about the chaos in Frankfurt.. luckily I checked in from Berlin so I still had my seat.. The aircraft was broken so they had to change to another aircraft which was smaller.. that was why some people who checked in from Frankfurt was on stand by..
I hate long flight actually.. well.. not with Singapore Airlines.. But I flew with Lufthansa.. well.. at least I got to see Kungfu Panda..

So.. I woke up at 4 am today.. thanks to jetlag.. and thx to me for forgetting to reset my alarm.. hahaha.. but I pushed myself to sleep again.. I never have problem with sleeping.. hahaha.. but then I was awake since my sis had to go to work..

And now I'm all alone at home.. yes.. It's the new house.. it's nice.. I like it..
I don't know what to do today actually.. although I do have lotsa things to do.. hahaha.. (procrastinator mode on)

well.. just wanna tell u guys that I'm in us already..

P.S.: Holiday starts now!

Yippie....

Living with 1 boy is hard enough for me.. Now.. my other cousin came.. it means that I have to live with 2 boys.. aaarrrrggghhh...
what they do is playing computer game.. which is counter strike.. and they hi-jack my lappy..
what is the point of playing that kinda game?
yea whatever..
btw.. my other cousin.. he's just 1 year apart from me.. he lives in Bremen.. he's majoring in music.. guitar.. so.. he came yesterday.. and gosh his hair!!!!
now I knoe why I'm having headache.. I can't stand his hair!!!!!!!!

Btw.. I'm done with my 3rd semester.. yippie!!!!! Yesterday was like my last exam in this semester.. I don't give a damn if I get a good grade or not.. I'm so looking forward to seeing my sister.. I'm so friggin' in holiday mood.. but I still have to finish 1 more protokoll..

Ou.. these Lufthansa people will go on strike starting on Monday.. what the heck.. I'm so gonna kill those people if sumthin happens to my flight schedule..

gosh.. this song by Epik High is so freaking addictive.. I can listen to it like thousand times a day.. although I didn't understand.. but it just keeps playing in my head..
and the music video is out.. yuhuu.. it's ok actually.. not my fave.. but still.. I think it's so interesting.. the whole idea.. concept..
I like the part where Tablo (the guy) brushed his teeth.. haha...
so..here.. enjoy the video..



I don't know why.. but I'm soooo sleepy today.. Guess I'm off to sleep..

P.S.: "A vacation is having nothing to do and all day to do it in." ~Robert Orben~

I'm so freakin' lazy..

I don't feel like studying anymore.. I'm bored.. I can't concentrate.. I'm so looking forward to holiday..
The only problem is.. I'm so not prepared for tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
help? anyone? aaaaaaaaaa....
ok..this is such a so-not-important posting..
ou.. I just found out that Obama is here.. hahaha.. what the heck is he doing here?
yea whatever..
better continue what I was doing before.. which was daydreaming.. hahahaha...


P.S.:“Discipline and concentration are a matter of being interested.” ~Tom Kite~

I only have 2 days left..

I'm not supposed to do this.. still have to continue studying.. but what to do.. I'm bored.. dammit.. I just remembered I haven't finished my protokoll..hihihi.. I really love to procrastinate.. So.. It seems like I can continue my organic lab.. it has nothing to do with the bloddy exam.. but.. there might be a possibility that I'll pass the exam with not-so-good-grade.. but whateva.. I don't give a damn.. But even If I still fail.. I won't get Maluspunkt (I don't know if there any English word for that..) I told Herr Lehmann about my problem.. so the problem is actually solved.. well..we'll see about that.. I still have 1 exam to go.. physical chemistry 2.. arrrgghh.. I'm so sick of studying.. I only have 2 days more.. and I'm wasting my time now.. great job!! but really after exam.. I'm so gonna hibernate.. I did actually last Sunday.. I took a nap for like 2 hours.. I slept as if I fainted.. really.. hahaha.. nothing much happened actually..

Ou.. on Saturday we went out.. well.. kinda farewell party for Debo.. my cousin's girlfriend.. she will be spend her next 6 months in Aachen.. doing her Diplom-arbeit-thing.. we went home real late.. and the next morning I had to go to early mass.. well.. not that early but still.. so there u go..the reason why I hibernated.. hihihi gosh..

Nose picking on saturday nite..

I'm really looking forward to holiday.. I can't wait to see my sis.. and cheesecake factory.. dammit! these kinda things really distract me.. arrrrrggghh.. ok Meta u have to focus!! U have to pass the exam.. better back to what I'm supposed to do.. which is studying.. oh shoot.. still have to analyze spectra.. (I'm listening to Sun Si Kyung.. Nice voice..)

P.S.: “Work is hard. Distractions are plentiful. And time is short.” ~Adam Hochschild~

antoher series of mental breakdown..

So.. I just found out that I didn't pass the bloody organic chem exam..
I'm kinda having a mental breakdown.. for sure.. but surprisingly.. it's not that bad..
for real.. when I saw the result and knew that I didn't pass.. I just thought.. yeah.. whatever.. I knew that I wouldn't pass the exam anyway..
well.. I do feel a bit disappointed.. I mean I failed for heaven's sake.. it's normal to be disappointed..
I even already thought of what I would do next if I didn't pass the exam..
I was thinking of send e-mail the professor for the make up exam..(err.. nachklausur in german..) since I won't be here on that day..
but then I was thinking.. the hell with it.. I'm so fine if I can't do organic lab 2 next semester.. I just feel like this semester was quite hectic.. well..really hectic.. at least for me..
I feel like I don't have life anymore because of the lab.. and I live so freaking unhealthily.. I don't have enough sleep.. I don't eat properly.. my friend always told me that I really looked so damn tired.. I become a caffeine-addict..
I don't hang out on weekends with my friends.. I don't chat anymore with my friend.. I used to be a msn-messenger freak.. I was always online.. but now...
really.. I don't know whether I'm happy with this kind of life..
I'm still young.. I still wanna have fun and enjoy my life..
if I think about it.. I always come to the same questions..
do I really want to study chemistry? am I happy with it? is this really what I wanna do? or am I just pretending that I like it?
ouu.. and there's a new question.. is chemistry really suitable for a clumsy person like me?
hmmm.. like always.. I never have the answers for these questions..
so.. I'm really in a deep thinking of what I would do next semester..
arrrrghhh.. my brain..my brain.. it tells me to stop thinking.. it really needs a rest..
I'll do the thinking tomorrow then.. (the procrastinator is back...)

so.. another video to share..
I was listening to this song the whole day..
the girl was in the same university as my sis.. hihihi..
probably I'd do the same thing as the girl did in the video after this..




P.S. : “Suicide is man's way of telling God, "You can't fire me - I quit." ~ Bill Maher~

Is this really goodbye??

Today I woke up with the same bad mood as yesterday.. because the first thing I remembered was the stupid mistake that I made yesterday.. way to go Meta.. -_-'
I really tried to kicked that bad mood away from me.. but it was really hard..

Today was also an important day.. Fina, the girl with unique hair and style, went back to Indonesia for good.. so I went to airport to say goodbye.. I really don't know.. should I be sad or happy? It's sad because she's no longer gonna be here with us.. she's no longer gonna fill our days with her cheerful personality with us.. we can't listen to her beautiful voice anymore..
but she's back to Indo for a really good reason.. (at least in my opinion it is..) She's gonna pursue her dream to study design.. I'm so proud of her.. and so envy her.. She's not afraid to decide.. "ok.. this is not what I want to do..It would be better if I go back and do what I really want.."
It is not an easy decision to make.. really.. I don't even have the guts to think about it..
I mean.. I hate every minute of my existence here.. I don't give a damn what people say.. I just hate being here.. I start questioning myself.. Is this really what I wanna do? Is chemistry the rite thing for me? Am I supposed to be here at the first place? Am I really happy with my decision?
Because sumtimes I feel like I'm just pretending to be happy.. or I'm just trying to look for happiness.. at least it's the only thing I can do.. *deep sigh*

ups.. what the heck am I doing? babbling about my problem.. I'm supposed to dedicate this post to Fina.. (with F and not V)
Who is Fina actually?? I met her in Studienkolleg for the first time.. I guess.. haha.. As I said she's the girl with unique hair.. and I really like her style too..how she dresses.. her big dork glasses.. and I won't forget her triangle scarf.. I remember.. one day she tried to explain how to make the scarf looks triangle when u wear it.. it was freakin' hilarious.. She's also very talented.. she sings real well.. she plays the guitar.. piano.. geez.. and she's really creative.. she's such a cheerful person.. she laughs a lot.. (it doesn't mean that she's crazy.. haha..well.. a bit.. ^^) she jokes around a lot.. that's why the atmosphere is so cheerful when she's around.. she also eats a lot.. but she's still slim and skinny.. I hate her for this.. it's sooo unfair!!!!!!! overall she's a really nice and fun person.. so glad to knoe and have a friend like u pina.. ^^

I'm gonna miss u pinaaa...

P.S.: “We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have.” ~Frederick Keonig~

I'm so not in the mood of talking..

So.. I screwed my exam up.. I think I'm not gonna pass..
I dunno.. aaarrrrggghhh...
yea whateva.. I mean what can I do..
I really had bad mood today.. usually chocolate can cheer me up.. but not today.. I wonder why..
but it's good for the sake of my diet.. (ok.. now I sound like Julian haha..)

wanna share a video.. It's a music video from Epik High. The song's called Fan..
yups.. lately I listen to their music.. surprisingly.. I don't usually listen to this kind of music..
I dunno why.. but I kinda enjoy their music..

I like the idea of the video.. I knoe the girl is psychopath.. (sumtime I feel I'm a bit psychopath.. hahaha...) My fave part is when the girl washed the guy in a washing machine.. and the one when the guy tried to burn himself.. then the girl came with fire extinguisher.. but I don't really understand the ending tho.. but still.. I think the video is great..

P.S.: “Unhappiness does make people look stupid” ~Anatole France~

I hate working with bromine..

I only have 2 nights to get those spectro things into my head.. oh noooo... I'm so dead..
I actually wanted to finish my eugenol experiment.. but my plan always didn't go well.. we were running out of aceton.. and we had to wait until 2.. so i made another experiment, which involved bromine.. again.. I hate it.. but it hasn't finished yet..

that brown liquid is so disgusting.. yaps it's bromine

wonder why I'm so in the mood of writing my blog everyday.. yaps.. because I have to freaking study.. hahahahaha.. I'm such a procrastinator rite???
As I said.. I only have two nights.. not days.. nights.. I only can study at night.. and I'm wasting my time by writing so not important things here.. hahahahaha
question.. why the heck am I sleepy? I had coffee tho.. arrrrrggghhh..
I have to stay awake tonite.. at least until 1 or 2..
I'm really gonna look like a panda..

P.S.:"Coffee is a beverage that puts one to sleep when not drank." ~Alphonse Allais~

I hate spectroscopy..

What Your Taste in Music Says About You

Your musical tastes are upbeat and conventional. You are an easy going, optimistic person. Family and friends are very important to you. You enjoy caring for and helping other people. You thrive in a tranquil environment, and you do your best to keep things peaceful. You enjoy your life. You have your priorities straight.

What Does Your Taste in Music Say About You?

P.S. : look what I'm doing.. I'm actually supposed to study the damn spectroscopy.. and analyze my spectrum.. arrrrrrggghhhh....

The road trip of my life..

The Road Trip of Your Life

You see companionship and loyalty as what's most important in life. You live life at a fairly leisurely pace. You take time to enjoy the sweeter parts of life, even when you're busy. You're willing to take a few risks in life. You may not take the road no one travels, but you're happy to take the road less traveled. You tend to be a workaholic. You overwork yourself without ever realizing it and sometimes suffer the consequences later. In another life, you could have been a great artist. You trust your creative instincts enough to let them lead you.

The Road Trip Test

P.S.: Somehow it's quite true.. esp. the overwork-without-realizing-it-part.. and I could have been a great artist..hihihi.. should I quit being a chemistry student???

sick of studying..

I'm so sick of studying.. aarrrggggghhhh...

I have to..but I just don't feel like doing it anymore.. help!!!
how can I get rid of this laziness out of me??
It's late already.. and look what I'm doing.. I keep procrastinating.. until I realize.. I really don't have that much time.. then I start to panic..and I'm running out of breath.. or am I hyperventilating?
aaaarrrrggghhh.. I think I'm gonna be crazy real soon.. I don't think I have life anymore..
My life is only about studying..lab journal..another studying.. another lab journal.. (yes..those damn protokoll!!!!)
I even don't have enough sleep.. I'm gonna look like a panda real soon.. with a black circle around my eyes.. I need my beauty sleep.. or maybe I should say my baby sleep.. I need 10 hours sleep.. hahaha..

Somehow.. this picture reminds me of sumthing..

gosh.. it's this late already.. I really should stop now..


P.S. : “I love sleep. My life has the tendency to fall apart when I'm awake, you know?” ~Ernest Hemingway~

I'm so stressed out...

I knoe.. I knoe.. it's been a while since I wrote.. yea rite.. define a while! I really don't have time.. organic lab is really wasting my time.. hahaha.. yea rite Meta.. just blame it to the lab.. It's me who decided to study chemistry.. so I come to a conclusion that being a blogger is not a really good idea for a chemistry student.. well at least for me.. I barely have time to write.. I even don't read anymore in train.. altho I do have an interesting book.. within a week I have spectroscopy exam.. and guess what? I don't understand it at all.. I repeat..AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!! then the week after..in 2 weeks.. I have organic chemistry (again) part 2 exam.. and the reactions, that I have to learn are freakin a lot.. really they're like a lot.. then.. it's physical chemistry exam's turn.. yea rite.. the worst part is.. I still have lab..still have like 2 weeks.. OMG!!!! and I still have to do like 3 or 4 experiments.... I'm sooo stressed out.. I really don't know if I can make it.. dammit!! please people.. remind me..why on earth do I study chemistry?? why? why??????? I have to be in lab when the weather outside is nice.. it is always like that.. every time I don't have lab.. the weather is just bad.. but today I was thankful that I was in the lab.. for heaven's sake.. it was sooooo hot out there.. and our lab has air conditioning.. haha.. but the assistant's room was freaking hot.. I don't know how the assistants can survive there.. well.. I guess I knoe why they had bad mood.. hahaha.. so.. Indah now is in charge.. the problem is she only speaks english.. (and indonesian when she talks to me..;P) the other students only speaks german.. well they do speak english but not that fluent.. so they really have problem with the language.. I remember.. christian and julian asked me to be translator for them.. the problem was.. they talk at the same time.. I was so confused.. and now since we use both english and german (and indonesian sumtimes).. my brain sumtimes doesn't work that well.. yesterday christian asked me sumthing.. and I wanted to say wait.. my brain told me to say it in german.. but my mouth didn't listen to my brain.. oooh.. this is so confusing.. hahaha.. and now I really want to learn korean.. yea rite Meta.. keep creating a new problem! gosh.. I really shouldn't do this.. hahaha.. I'm such a procrastinator... ok.. I'm off..

I'm so stressed out..

P.S. :“Brain cells create ideas. Stress kills brain cells. Stress is not a good idea.”~Frederick Saunders~

Organic chemistry exam part one..

It's tomorrow.. yaps.. and look what I'm doing...-_-'

I'm sooo freaking out.. but I just don't feel like studying anymore.. I've had enough.. but why do I always have this feeling, that I'm soo not ready?? arrrrrggghhh...

what should I do???

I really want to study more..but my brain resists.. I need extra brain.. anyone?

well..better get back to my bloody study thing..

wish me luck!!

P.S.: “Why Study For Exams.... Are they not about what you know, not about how much you can cram into your head the night before?” ~unknown~

I was soooo embarrassed..

I was humiliating my self yesterday.. even if I'm thinking of it.. I still feel embarrassed..

so here goes..yesterday I have this briefing about safety in lab.. and in the end we kinda had to re-enact accidents that could happen in labs.. and the other were supposed to learn what kind of action they should take.. in other words.. they were supposed to help. So.. I was picked.. dammit!

Even before I started to act..I was already humiliating myself.. I was sitting on the table..and when I jumped down.. I hurt my foot.. hahaha I was injured before I acted as an injured person.

My case was.. I was splashed..or accidentally poured chemicals to my sleeve.. So I had to pretend that my hand hurt so bad.. they should actually take off my clothes.. but I had to insist that I don't want to.. since there were boys.. the point was.. they were supposed to take me to other room.. or kick the boys out of the room.. hahaha.. although my friends told me I did great job.. I still felt so embarrassed.. I felt like burying myself alive.. -_-'

ou..I really am gonna kill the postman with my own hand!!! My birthday card from my sister hasn't come.. and I don't think it will.. it's like the second time it happens to me.. what is wrong with my mail?? dammit!!!

so..plan of the day.. study organic chem for the whole day.. *finger crossed*.. well.. in the end I will spend more time to clean up my room than study.. hahaha.. I said spend not waste.. hehehe

P.S. : “If you have embarrassed yourself and are going to laugh about it someday, you might as well start today.” ~unknown~