You are my star...

... I'm your number 1 fan. Baby please, take my hand..
I think I've posted this video before.. but I wanna post it again because..
I miss Epik High so bad.. T_T
Mithra and DJ Tukutz are still in the army.. and Tablo is MIA.. T_T

Epik High - Fan

P.S.: "Some lessons are only delivered in the form of pain" ~ Tablo

Happy 1st Anniversary..

... to Debo and Abang.. hihihi.. wow.. it's been a year since you guys got married..
ouu.. it means that it's been a year since I humiliated myself in front of a lot of people.. -___-;;

Yeah.. failed.. big time..

I guess time does really fly..
It means also that it's been almost a year since I graduated.. and I still have no idea what I wanna do with my life..
Grad school? yes.. I do wanna pursue my study.. but I've never thought that finding the rite grad school is so freaking hard.. Maybe it is because I still don't know what I want to study.. where I want to study.. -___-;;
It's so typically me.. I know I'm such an indecisive person..
Scholarship? yes I also do want to apply for scholarship.. but I don't have that super perfect GPA..
Job? arrgghh.. I don't wanna talk about it.. next!!
See.. my life is so complicated.. and I think it is because of me.. I make my life complicated..
and then again the what-if-questions came up.. and this time the I-wish-statements tagged along..

this is one of my I-wish-statements.. I wish I had the money I wanna travel the world.. starting from Indonesia.. I do think that Indonesia has a lot of beautiful place to visit..
ouu.. I wish I had a sophisticated camera, that would be a perfect match with the first I-wish-statement.. but my mom said no! She wouldn't allow me to buy a sophisticated camera.. She said I would abandon the camera as soon as I get bored.. hahahaha..
I think I just have to bury my dream to be a photographer.. hmmm.. although.. there was one person who told me that I looked like a photographer.. hohoho..
ok.. focus! I just stick to scientist.. speaking of scientist.. I haven't finished my book "The Grand Design" by Stephen Hawking.. hahaha.. I bought the book like 3 months ago.. maybe it's the contents.. or maybe it's the language.. or maybe it's the fact that I don't like physics.. or maybe it's just me, who's not smart enough to understand.. ok.. I'll blame the language, I think I could understand better if I read the English version.. ;p what an alibi.. huahahahahaha...
No.. it's not that I'm not proud of my mother tongue.. it's just that sometime the translation is just not rite.. as in.. it cannot explain as good as the original (English) version.. yeah whatever..
ok.. to make it simpler.. I'm not that smart enough to understand what Stephen Hawking wrote.. there.. happy?

P.S.: "It is not clear that intelligence has any long-term survival value" ~Stephen Hawking~

Bali Trip..

I just got back from Bali.. again.. this time not for wedding.. it's just that my aunt asked me and my mom to go with her so that my grandma would go to Bali..and due to the fact that we would stay at my mom's friend's house.. however... my grandma fell like a few days before the trip.. so she cancelled the trip because she said that she still had headache..
But actually it was a good thing that she didn't come along..

I ended up helping my cousin's wife baby sitting the boys.. we went to Bali Zoo.. ouu.. an interesting fact.. the entrance ticket price for locals and foreigners is different.. it is a lot cheaper for locals.. at first we were quite surprised to see that the price was actually in USD and it was quite pricey.. thank God we're locals.. hahaha..
The zoo was okay.. Maybe it was because of the boys.. they were like really excited.. so it made me a little bit excited too.. going to the zoo with kids did give a different vibe..

Look how fascinated the boys are..

After lunch we went to the Monkey Forest.. and the drama happened.. My cousin's wife got bitten by a monkey.. this wasn't my first time going to this monkey place.. I've been to this kinda place before.. but this was my first time witnessing a monkey bit someone.. I think I heard that one of the boys hit the monkey when the monkey jumped to their mom's back.. maybe that was why.. I dunno..

So the next day.. the boys wanted to go to the beach.. actually they wanted to go swimming.. not entirely swimming.. they wanted to go to the water park kinda thing..then I said.. "I can't go with you.. I can't swim" In the end we went to the beach.. because the boys wanted to build sand castle.. at first we went to Dreamland, but the wave was too high, so it was kinda scary to let the boys play there.. then we went to Nusa Dua.. we started to unpack our belongings.. but then a security came to us and asked us to move to another area, because this area were for Grand Hyatt's customer only and we were not..
What funny was.. I didn't know that my other cousin was actually staying at Grand Hyatt... I just found out the day after we kicked out by the security guy.. hahaha..

The last 4 days of the trip were filled with eating and shopping.. hahaha.. yes.. another episode of diet screwing.. -___-;; ouuuw.. I found a cute t-shirt.. a poo printed t-shirt.. I fell in love with the t-shirt at the first sight.. too bad it was a male t-shirt.. ouuu...ouuuu.. I should've bought the smallest size.. yea rite.. smart me! I think my mom will give the poo t-shirt to someone else.. booooo...Dear the future owner of the t-shirt.. please take good care of it.. *I will upload the pic later*

I wish this were mine.. :(

In conclusion, I have to be on a strict diet thanks to the trip.. and my skin is indeed darker than before.. *sigh*

P.S.: "Dieting is not a piece of cake." ~Unknown~

Ssssssshhhhhhh!!!!

Aarrrrgghhh.. this is killing me.. I really wanna blurt everything out.. but I just can't.. since this is supposed to be a freaking secret..
but I guess I can tell that we're going to have lunch with the bride-to-be next week at.. arrrrrrgghhh.. I can't tell where.. since the place is also supposed to be a secret too..
ok.. I don't think she will read my blog anyway.. nobody reads my blog.. -___-;;
well.. just in case she read this..
I still can't believe that the wedding is getting closer and closer.. less than 2 weeks..

ouuu.. I finally tried to spend my blood.. but I wasn't allowed to do it, because of my freaking hemoglobin.. if I knew this earlier.. I would go to this mass with OMK thingy to see my other bestie performed.. -___-;;
So in the end I just stayed home... alone.. my mom went lunch with her friends..
and I remembered.. my mom didn't prepare lunch for me.. so yes.. I was home alone and starving.. or maybe it was a reminder for me to really start the effing diet..
Speaking of diet.. I lost weight.. yeaaaaayyyy... i lost like 2 kg.. *big grin*
maybe I really should reconsider my decision to resign.. hyahahahaha..

Last night we.. okay my mom was invited to her friend's birthday dinner.. and then there was this welcome drink.. it was actually vegetable juice.. and it was served in a test tube..
I was sooooo happy that I drank juice from a test tube.. I'm such a geek.. hahaha..

P.S.: I am really more excited than the bride-to-be.. *giggle giggle*

Tough decision..

Nothing really interesting happened to my life lately.. My life evolves around home, work, and plant.. yups.. nothing much happened..
Ou.. I finally did it.. I submitted my resignation letter..
it was actually a tough decision to make.. I like working here.. I really do.. The people are nice.. It's just that I don't really like what I do..
Well.. people don't always get what they want in real life.. yes.. that sucks.. but we have to deal with it.. Reality is cruel..
Some told me not to quit, some told me to quit..
I just hope I made the right choice..
But I told them, if they haven't found a new replacement.. I still can work until they find it.. don't u think it's a very polite resignation? hihihi..

Anyway... one of my bestie is getting married in 2 weeks.. ok.. I can't say her name.. Since this is not supposed to be exposed.. but hey.. I'm a blogger.. I share stories.. hahaha..
Ok.. so she told us like 2 weeks ago.. she invited me and my other bestie.. We were like.. "yeay.. we're going to Bali.." yups.. the wedding is in Bali..
ouu.. fyi dear, if u happen to read this.. your wedding is one of the reason I submitted my resignation letter this soon.. hahahaha..
I'm more excited than the bride-to-be.. wonder why.. hahahaha..
but she's like the wackiest bride-to-be I've ever knew.. She hasn't decided which wedding dress she's going to wear on THE day.. Even we, the guests, already prepared which dress we're going to wear.. hahahaha..
see we're like more excited than the one who's going to get married..


P.S.: "Decisions become easier when your will to please God outweighs your will to please the world." ~Anso Coetzer~

Internet oh internet..

I did once say that I wasn't gonna blame my internet connection..
but look what the internet has done to me.. it pissed me off.. (oops.. sorry for the language..)
I just wanna try to keep my promise..
I feel like updating my blog..
Honestly I miss my writing.. I don't even write my diary anymore.. btw, where is my diary?
well.. I guess it must be somewhere here or at my grandma's..

So.. internet connection.. it is still a problem for me apparently..
Is there any blogger application for blackberry? Did I just say (or write) blackberry? I stil am in denial that I own a blackberry..
I could only find tumblr and wordpress.. I already have tumblr on my blackberry.. does that mean that I should convert to wordpress? hohoho..
or maybe I should try this post from e-mail thingy..
I'll think about it.. well.. I am a hardcore procrastinator anyway.. so the possibility of me doing the e-mail thingy is like 1%.. hahahaha..

whew.. look at the time.. I should go to sleep now..
I have to work tomorrow.. work? work?
yes.. I am a working girl.. although it will soon come to an end.. ;p

P.S.: Runny nose is seriously no fun!

I'd love to work for Disney..

You Should Work for Disney

You see the big picture, and while you delight in details, you don't get hung up on them. You are original and independent. You're making your own trends and carving your own path. You have your own vision, and it's important to you to express it. You embrace your quirks. Work is very important to you. Work gives you meaning.

What Company Should You Work For?

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P.S.: Happy Birthday to me!!

Happy 3rd Anniversary!

Dear bloggie,

We've been together for 3 years..
I share my stories, thoughts, and feelings with you..
I'm sorry I've abandoned you for too long..
I'm not gonna blame my internet connection this time..
It's just that I don't have any stories to share..
I've been bad to you since I've met Twitter..
But deep down in my heart.. I really miss you..
Please don't be mad at me..
I'm thinking of telling you stories again soon..
So let's start a new chapter..

P.S.: "A journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step" ~ Lao Tzu

Welcome 2011..

It's 2011 already.. Happy new year everyone..
oh.. how I miss my blog.. yes.. I admit that I've abandoned this blog for too long..
I don't blame the internet connection this time.. it's just me.. I don't feel like writing, sharing or anything..
I've just realized, actually I have some posts that I haven't published yet.. even there are some posts that I haven't finished..
So after this I'll re-read them and maybe I'll publish the posts.. maybe.. hehehe..

Year 2011.. honestly it doesn't feel like it's 2011.. I don't know.. it just feels the same as 2010..
maybe it's because of the fact that I didn't celebrate it..
yesterday I only went to church to attend the new year's eve mass.. then I went home.. flipped through channel.. saw the countdown.. and continued watching movie.. that was it.. nothing really special..

Time does fly really fast.. it feels like I just came back from Berlin yesterday.. but no.. it's been 4 months already.. and I'm still jobless.. hyahahaha..
I actually planned to apply for grad school.. but I don't think I'm ready for it..
so I try to find a job first.. if there is any.. -___-;;

I don't have any resolution for this year.. I mean I'm a hardcore procrastinator.. so what's the point of having resolution list when I hardly do the list..
I just wanna be a better person.. and do better this year.. learn from last year mistakes.. yups.. that sounds pretty good to me..

P.S. : "The object of a new year is not that we should have a new year. It is that we should have a new soul" ~G. K. Chesterton~