I'm tired..

I'm tired of my so-called-life..
I'm tired of waking up in the morning..
I'm tired of sitting in U-Bahn..
I'm tired of listening to lecture..
I'm tired of spending hours and hours in lab..
I'm tired of doing the whole experiments..
I'm tired of working with hazardous, inflammable, carcinogen substances..
I'm tired of writing lab reports..
I'm tired...

P.S. : “I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.” ~Fannie Lou Hamer~

I'm in a deep confusion...

So.. I am really in a deep confusion..
About the exchange thing.. I think I'm not gonna do it.. at least to US..
Maybe to Australia.. but I don't know..my mom offered me something really interesting..
She finally let me fly back to Indonesia..
this offer made me so confused.. I really want to go back to Indonesia..
I dunno.. I can't think clearly rite now..
Lately I feel like I don't know myself anymore..
It feels like my soul is taking a time off.. it's flying somewhere else..leaving my body all by itself..
There must be something really wrong with me.. but I just don't know what it is..

Yesterday I went out for lunch with Nita and Rafe.. We had sushi.. since I was craving for Japanese food.. We ended up in Hugendubel..
On the way home.. me and Nita had a so-not-important-discussion.. Nita insisted me to say "Duh?!" over and over again.. she wanted to know the rite intonation.. what the??
This kind of thing makes us really get along.. She told me..she would practice at home.. well.. I just wish her brother a lot of luck.. hehehe..

P.S. : Ou..Ou.. Today Sandra and Denio are saying the infamous 2 words.. "I do"... Congratz guys!!

Happy birthday sis...

Today is my sis' birthday..
Happy Birthday sis...
although I cannot be there.. I did send u a birthday card..
I had to pay 4 freaking bucks.. If the postman messed up.. I'd beat him up!!!


Since it's my sis b'day.. let's talk a bit bout her.. She's my only one sister.. we're five years apart.. although she doesn't act like she is 5 years older.. most people say that we're look alike.. We rarely fight.. maybe when we were little, we did fight..
we share stories..gossips.. secrets.. (well.. at least I think we share secrets..or maybe it's just me who keeps telling her my secret??)
I still remember that when she was still in Indonesia.. I was still in my 2nd year of high school back then..
we did hang out a lot.. We went to the mall.. had lunch.. went to movies without knowing which film we should see..
What I miss the most is.. We used to go to Planet Hollywood like a lot.. having dinner.. with my cousin or her best friends.. or even with my mom..
Aaaaah.. those days.. I really miss those days..
One time we (my sis, me, and 2 of our friends) went to this Cosmo Girl of the Year event.. we had the chance to meet this guy..Jonathan Frizzy.. so my sis voluntarily took our picture with him.. although we said.. we could ask other people to take it so that she could also be in the picture too.. and she was like.. "oh no.. it's fine.. " after we said thank you and stuff.. my sister was like.."wait.. now it's my turn.." what the...???? so..we had group picture.. and she was alone with the guy.. nice one sis..^_^'
I guess I have to stop here.. I can write a lot about her.. hehehe..

P.S. : “For there is no friend like a sister, in calm or stormy weather, to cheer one on the tedious way, to fetch one if one goes astray, to lift one if one totters down, to strengthen whilst one stands.” ~Christina G. Rossetti~

Shake it off..shake it off...

I'm not a fan of Agnes Monica.. but I do really think she did a great job in Asia Song Festival 2008..
This performance is freakin' awesome..
I watch this like over and over again.. but never get tired of it..
I can't believe I'm gonna say this.. (take a deep breath...)
I'm proud of her!!!! She rocks!!!

credit: blastoop
P.S.: The song keeps playing in my head, although I don't really understand what she was saying..^_^'

Is there really a pumpkin latte?

You Are a Pumpkin Latte

You are always up for a celebration. You are a very festive person. You look forward to every holiday, and you are nostalgic for good times after they're over. You appreciate the small things that make life special. You love little treats. You often look at the world with childlike wonder. There's so much to enjoy!

What Flavor Latte Are You?

P.S.: I want my tall soy latte..

sleepless nights..

I'm sick.. I have cold and a bit of sore throat.. I couldn't sleep well at night.. The first night was really bad.. I'm used to sleep without noises.. but here.. people's walking noise could wake me up.. and maybe it was because of jetlag too... Then last night.. my sis called me at 3 am.. just to tell me sumthin that I already knew.. I could barely remember what she said actually.. hahaha.. Hopefully I can sleep like a baby tonite.. I really need a good peaceful sleep..


P.S. : "Sometimes the most productive one can do is to sleep." ~unknown~

Counting the hours..

I'm flying back to Berlin tonite..
I'm flying back to my boring life..
I'm flying back to reality..

I feel so sad..
I feel so miserable..
I am scared..

Why is it so hard to leave?
Why is it so hard to face that my holiday is over?
Why is it so hard to get back on track?

P.S.: "Those to whom we say farewell, are welcomed by others." ~unknown~