saying good bye to organic lab..

today is my last day of organic lab..
I don't know what I'm feeling... relieved? happy?
I might sound crazy.. but I think I'm gonna miss it..
I'm gonna miss the boring time when I had to heat my mixture for 5 freaking hours..
I'm gonna miss doing the distillation, recrystallization...
I'm gonna miss the disappointment when I didn't get my product..
I'm gonna miss how I was so freakin' irritated when I had to work with bromine..
I'm gonna miss the smell of bromine..
I'm gonna miss how I was so scared and stressful when I had oral test..
I'm gonna miss how I got so confused with the spectrum..
I'm gonna miss the hectic time when I had to write lab reports..
I'm gonna miss how happy I was when my NMR spectra showed that I got the product and it was clean..

Speaking of NMR spectra.. I got lost again today after delivering my NMR sample to the NMR people downstairs.. hahaha..
I've already got lost twice in one day last week.. hahaha.. that's so typically me..
I get lost easily..

Ou.. yesterday.. one of the assistant said something that made me speechless..
assistant: I think you have the product..well done!
me: (speechless)
It was the first time someone said well done to me for sumthing I do in lab..
I'm kinda proud of myself tho..
and once again today.. I got pretty clean products.. although I'm pretty sure the yield is not that good..

well..it's over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my organic lab is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now I have to write 4 freaking lab reports in English.. aaaaaaaaaa.........

my last experiment involved this..

I stayed until 7:30 pm because of this..

P.S. : “A moment lasts all of a second, but the memory lives on forever.” ~unknown~

I'm running out of time..

for real.. I feel like time is really a sprinter..
I only have 2 days left.. then my organic lab is gonna be over..
and I have less than 1 week to cram all those electrochemistry things into my head..
I still have to write 4 lab reports.. and in English.. which I have never done it before..
I still have 2 exams waiting for me in 2 weeks..
see.. I'm really running out of time..
but what the hell am I doing rite now?
yes.. updating my blog..
way to go!!!

P.S. : “Time is like a handful of sand- the tighter you grasp it, the faster it runs through your fingers” ~unknown~

totally tired..

09:00 am
The professor was talking.. It was raining outside.. I was sitting inside.. nice and warm.. I didn't pay any attentions.. I was staring at the rain.. daydreaming..

09:55 am
The professor was still talking.. It was still raining outside.. I was still sitting inside.. nice and warm.. I still didn't pay any attentions.. I was watching the clock.. yawning..

10:30 am
The weird tutor was writing on the board and talking at the same time.. I was copying what he was writing without trying to understand..

11:10 am
I was on my way to organic building.. preparing myself for the hell hours in lab..

05:05 pm
I had an oral test with one of assistant..my last one.. suddenly stuck in a bad situation..

05:55 pm
I was standing in front of the rotary evaporator.. trying to remove the freaking diethyl ether from my substance.. I was thinking whether I should go to maths lecture or not..

07:05 pm
I left my lab.. went down to grab my jacket..

07:40 pm
Finally.. I was home..

P.S. : "Rivers know this: there is no hurry. We shall get there some day." ~Winnie the Pooh~

Exhausted..

Monday..... 7:15 pm
Tuesday..... 6:30 pm
Wednesday.....(which is today) 7:35 pm

The times when I left my lab..

P.S.: "Our fatigue is often caused not by work, but by worry, frustration and resentment." ~Dale Carnegie~

I'm alive..

Yes.. it's me.. I'm alive... hehehe..
Nothing happened.. well.. I let Christian do it first tho.. haha.. thx Christian..
but for real.. I was like so worried.. what if I didn't add enuff sodium disulfite.. what if it would really explode..what if.. what if..
well.. here I am...writing.. I'm okay..I'm okay.. hahahaha
My mom is finally flying back to Indo.. yuhuuu...
She's so happy.. she really wants to go back to Indo.. hahaha..
Lately I feel so terrible.. I really become a super freaking lazy person.. well.. I am lazy.. but really.. I'm super duper freaking lazy lately..
I don't have any motivations.. I don't really care anymore.. it's like that I don't give a damn on my study anymore.. wonder why?
I just feel I've reached my limit already.. I've had enough with the whole study things.. I'm sick of studying..
I'm bored with my life..

P.S.: “Are you bored with life? Then throw yourself into some work you believe in with all your heart, live for it, die for it, and you will find happiness that you had thought could never be yours” ~Dale Carnegie~

Boom....!!!!!!

Phew.. things always don't go as I have planned.. does it happen to everyone? or is it just me?
So.. I really wanted to finish my experiment today..
but what can I do... sumthing happened.. and I can tell you it's not a good one..
here's the thing.. my mixture happened to be really dark brownish.. I dunno why.. my friend's is a bit dark yellowish.. he has the same experiment too..
So.. we have to add sodium disulfite to the mixture.. to deactivate the freaking bromine.. we have to add it until the color of the solution doesn't change anymore..
my freaking solution is already dark brown.. how the heck am I supposed to know it does change or not???????
and here comes the interesting part..
if you add it too much..sulfur dioxide gas might be developed when I give acid to the solution.. which is the next step..
but.. if the sodium disulfite is not enough.. the bromine might react with ether,which I will use for separating the product, and form HIGH EXPLOSIVE peroxides..
Nice.... -_-;
I would say.. I'll go with the first option.. I've spent 20 years of my life in Jakarta anyway.. I believe I've inhaled sodium dioxide before.. from the emission of the vehicles in Jakarta.. hehehe..
well.. let's see what will happen tomorrow.. will I explode my lab??

P.S. : “To achieve great things, two things are needed; a plan, and not quite enough time.” ~ Leonard Bernstein~

Yummieee...muffins..

You Are a Cherry Muffin

You are very friendly and sweet. You love to socialize. You have a bit of a fire in your heart, and you secretly love adventure. You are well known for speaking your mind. You tell people exactly what you think. However, you're so nice when you're honest, no one really cares! Even though you're down to earth, you're not exactly the girl or guy next door. You are actually quite worldly and sophisticated. You are well traveled and well read.

What Kind of Muffin Are You?

P.S.: I wanna bake muffins..

Just keep waiting..

So.. not much happened today.. I mean.. I only had to wait for my reaction..
I had to heat the mixture for 5 freaking hours.. all I could do is waiting.. and waiting.. and waiting..
I even got the chance to have coffee break.. twice....
but in the end.. I needed more time.. So the assistant told me I could do it in her lab.. so I did it..
I was finished at 7 pm.. now I'm so freaking tired..
I haven't done my homeworks.. I haven't learned for my oral test tomorrow..
and now here I am.. telling all these stories.. yea rite.. way to go Meta!!
I keep asking myself.. why.. why do I study chemistry?? whyyyyyyyy?????
But actually.. I really can't believe it.. that I can make it this far.. I mean.. I'm in my 4th semester already.. I'm proud of myself..
In the other hand.. I don't feel like I'm a 4th semester student.. I feel like I can do nothing.. really.. I really feel like I haven't learned a single thing.. I still don't understand a lot of things.. (deep sigh) -_-;

P.S. : I'm going to see Keane tomorrow..

My cute monster..

What Your Cute Monster Says About You

You are a simply happy person. You still view the world with a childlike innocence. You have an easy going attitude, and you value harmony. You love freely and inspire others to love. You inner demon is frailty. You are easily beaten down by life. People think you're cute because you are optimistic. Your outlook on life is charming.

The Cute Monster Test

P.S.: Somehow it's true.. but I don't think I'm optimistic..