a silly life of a full-time daydreamer

You are my star...

2011-07-21T08:48:00.008+02:00

... I'm your number 1 fan. Baby please, take my hand..
I think I've posted this video before.. but I wanna post it again because..
I miss Epik High so bad.. T_T
Mithra and DJ Tukutz are still in the army.. and Tablo is MIA.. T_T

Epik High - Fan

P.S.: "Some lessons are only delivered in the form of pain" ~ Tablo

Happy 1st Anniversary..

2011-07-17T17:20:00.011+02:00

... to Debo and Abang.. hihihi.. wow.. it's been a year since you guys got married..
ouu.. it means that it's been a year since I humiliated myself in front of a lot of people.. -___-;;

Yeah.. failed.. big time..

I guess time does really fly..
It means also that it's been almost a year since I graduated.. and I still have no idea what I wanna do with my life..
Grad school? yes.. I do wanna pursue my study.. but I've never thought that finding the rite grad school is so freaking hard.. Maybe it is because I still don't know what I want to study.. where I want to study.. -___-;;
It's so typically me.. I know I'm such an indecisive person..
Scholarship? yes I also do want to apply for scholarship.. but I don't have that super perfect GPA..
Job? arrgghh.. I don't wanna talk about it.. next!!
See.. my life is so complicated.. and I think it is because of me.. I make my life complicated..
and then again the what-if-questions came up.. and this time the I-wish-statements tagged along..

this is one of my I-wish-statements.. I wish I had the money I wanna travel the world.. starting from Indonesia.. I do think that Indonesia has a lot of beautiful place to visit..
ouu.. I wish I had a sophisticated camera, that would be a perfect match with the first I-wish-statement.. but my mom said no! She wouldn't allow me to buy a sophisticated camera.. She said I would abandon the camera as soon as I get bored.. hahahaha..
I think I just have to bury my dream to be a photographer.. hmmm.. although.. there was one person who told me that I looked like a photographer.. hohoho..
ok.. focus! I just stick to scientist.. speaking of scientist.. I haven't finished my book "The Grand Design" by Stephen Hawking.. hahaha.. I bought the book like 3 months ago.. maybe it's the contents.. or maybe it's the language.. or maybe it's the fact that I don't like physics.. or maybe it's just me, who's not smart enough to understand.. ok.. I'll blame the language, I think I could understand better if I read the English version.. ;p what an alibi.. huahahahahaha...
No.. it's not that I'm not proud of my mother tongue.. it's just that sometime the translation is just not rite.. as in.. it cannot explain as good as the original (English) version.. yeah whatever..
ok.. to make it simpler.. I'm not that smart enough to understand what Stephen Hawking wrote.. there.. happy?

P.S.: "It is not clear that intelligence has any long-term survival value" ~Stephen Hawking~

Bali Trip..

2011-07-12T06:59:00.014+02:00

I just got back from Bali.. again.. this time not for wedding.. it's just that my aunt asked me and my mom to go with her so that my grandma would go to Bali..and due to the fact that we would stay at my mom's friend's house.. however... my grandma fell like a few days before the trip.. so she cancelled the trip because she said that she still had headache..
But actually it was a good thing that she didn't come along..

I ended up helping my cousin's wife baby sitting the boys.. we went to Bali Zoo.. ouu.. an interesting fact.. the entrance ticket price for locals and foreigners is different.. it is a lot cheaper for locals.. at first we were quite surprised to see that the price was actually in USD and it was quite pricey.. thank God we're locals.. hahaha..
The zoo was okay.. Maybe it was because of the boys.. they were like really excited.. so it made me a little bit excited too.. going to the zoo with kids did give a different vibe..

Look how fascinated the boys are..

After lunch we went to the Monkey Forest.. and the drama happened.. My cousin's wife got bitten by a monkey.. this wasn't my first time going to this monkey place.. I've been to this kinda place before.. but this was my first time witnessing a monkey bit someone.. I think I heard that one of the boys hit the monkey when the monkey jumped to their mom's back.. maybe that was why.. I dunno..

So the next day.. the boys wanted to go to the beach.. actually they wanted to go swimming.. not entirely swimming.. they wanted to go to the water park kinda thing..then I said.. "I can't go with you.. I can't swim" In the end we went to the beach.. because the boys wanted to build sand castle.. at first we went to Dreamland, but the wave was too high, so it was kinda scary to let the boys play there.. then we went to Nusa Dua.. we started to unpack our belongings.. but then a security came to us and asked us to move to another area, because this area were for Grand Hyatt's customer only and we were not..
What funny was.. I didn't know that my other cousin was actually staying at Grand Hyatt... I just found out the day after we kicked out by the security guy.. hahaha..

The last 4 days of the trip were filled with eating and shopping.. hahaha.. yes.. another episode of diet screwing.. -___-;; ouuuw.. I found a cute t-shirt.. a poo printed t-shirt.. I fell in love with the t-shirt at the first sight.. too bad it was a male t-shirt.. ouuu...ouuuu.. I should've bought the smallest size.. yea rite.. smart me! I think my mom will give the poo t-shirt to someone else.. booooo...Dear the future owner of the t-shirt.. please take good care of it.. ~~*I will upload the pic later*~~

I wish this were mine.. :(

In conclusion, I have to be on a strict diet thanks to the trip.. and my skin is indeed darker than before.. *sigh*

P.S.: "Dieting is not a piece of cake." ~Unknown~

Ssssssshhhhhhh!!!!

2011-06-05T14:28:00.006+02:00

Aarrrrgghhh.. this is killing me.. I really wanna blurt everything out.. but I just can't.. since this is supposed to be a freaking secret..
but I guess I can tell that we're going to have lunch with the bride-to-be next week at.. arrrrrrgghhh.. I can't tell where.. since the place is also supposed to be a secret too..
ok.. I don't think she will read my blog anyway.. nobody reads my blog.. -___-;;
well.. just in case she read this..
I still can't believe that the wedding is getting closer and closer.. less than 2 weeks..

ouuu.. I finally tried to spend my blood.. but I wasn't allowed to do it, because of my freaking hemoglobin.. if I knew this earlier.. I would go to this mass with OMK thingy to see my other bestie performed.. -___-;;
So in the end I just stayed home... alone.. my mom went lunch with her friends..
and I remembered.. my mom didn't prepare lunch for me.. so yes.. I was home alone and starving.. or maybe it was a reminder for me to really start the effing diet..
Speaking of diet.. I lost weight.. yeaaaaayyyy... i lost like 2 kg.. *big grin*
maybe I really should reconsider my decision to resign.. hyahahahaha..

Last night we.. okay my mom was invited to her friend's birthday dinner.. and then there was this welcome drink.. it was actually vegetable juice.. and it was served in a test tube..
I was sooooo happy that I drank juice from a test tube.. I'm such a geek.. hahaha..

P.S.: I am really more excited than the bride-to-be.. *giggle giggle*

Tough decision..

2011-06-04T09:09:00.003+02:00

Nothing really interesting happened to my life lately.. My life evolves around home, work, and plant.. yups.. nothing much happened..
Ou.. I finally did it.. I submitted my resignation letter..
it was actually a tough decision to make.. I like working here.. I really do.. The people are nice.. It's just that I don't really like what I do..
Well.. people don't always get what they want in real life.. yes.. that sucks.. but we have to deal with it.. Reality is cruel..
Some told me not to quit, some told me to quit..
I just hope I made the right choice..
But I told them, if they haven't found a new replacement.. I still can work until they find it.. don't u think it's a very polite resignation? hihihi..

Anyway... one of my bestie is getting married in 2 weeks.. ok.. I can't say her name.. Since this is not supposed to be exposed.. but hey.. I'm a blogger.. I share stories.. hahaha..
Ok.. so she told us like 2 weeks ago.. she invited me and my other bestie.. We were like.. "yeay.. we're going to Bali.." yups.. the wedding is in Bali..
ouu.. fyi dear, if u happen to read this.. your wedding is one of the reason I submitted my resignation letter this soon.. hahahaha..
I'm more excited than the bride-to-be.. wonder why.. hahahaha..
but she's like the wackiest bride-to-be I've ever knew.. She hasn't decided which wedding dress she's going to wear on THE day.. Even we, the guests, already prepared which dress we're going to wear.. hahahaha..
see we're like more excited than the one who's going to get married..

P.S.: "Decisions become easier when your will to please God outweighs your will to please the world." ~Anso Coetzer~

Internet oh internet..

2011-05-17T16:21:00.005+02:00

I did once say that I wasn't gonna blame my internet connection..
but look what the internet has done to me.. it pissed me off.. (oops.. sorry for the language..)
I just wanna try to keep my promise..
I feel like updating my blog..
Honestly I miss my writing.. I don't even write my diary anymore.. btw, where is my diary?
well.. I guess it must be somewhere here or at my grandma's..

So.. internet connection.. it is still a problem for me apparently..
Is there any blogger application for blackberry? Did I just say (or write) blackberry? I stil am in denial that I own a blackberry..
I could only find tumblr and wordpress.. I already have tumblr on my blackberry.. does that mean that I should convert to wordpress? hohoho..
or maybe I should try this post from e-mail thingy..
I'll think about it.. well.. I am a hardcore procrastinator anyway.. so the possibility of me doing the e-mail thingy is like 1%.. hahahaha..

whew.. look at the time.. I should go to sleep now..
I have to work tomorrow.. work? work?
yes.. I am a working girl.. although it will soon come to an end.. ;p

P.S.: Runny nose is seriously no fun!

I'd love to work for Disney..

2011-05-09T16:35:00.002+02:00

You Should Work for Disney

You see the big picture, and while you delight in details, you don't get hung up on them.
You are original and independent. You're making your own trends and carving your own path.

You have your own vision, and it's important to you to express it. You embrace your quirks.
Work is very important to you. Work gives you meaning.

What Company Should You Work For?

Blogthings: We Have a Quiz for Almost Everything

P.S.: Happy Birthday to me!!

Happy 3rd Anniversary!

2011-05-01T20:49:00.000+02:00

Dear bloggie,

We've been together for 3 years..
I share my stories, thoughts, and feelings with you..
I'm sorry I've abandoned you for too long..
I'm not gonna blame my internet connection this time..
It's just that I don't have any stories to share..
I've been bad to you since I've met Twitter..
But deep down in my heart.. I really miss you..
Please don't be mad at me..
I'm thinking of telling you stories again soon..
So let's start a new chapter..

P.S.: "A journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step" ~ Lao Tzu

Welcome 2011..

2011-01-01T09:17:00.003+01:00

It's 2011 already.. Happy new year everyone..
oh.. how I miss my blog.. yes.. I admit that I've abandoned this blog for too long..
I don't blame the internet connection this time.. it's just me.. I don't feel like writing, sharing or anything..
I've just realized, actually I have some posts that I haven't published yet.. even there are some posts that I haven't finished..
So after this I'll re-read them and maybe I'll publish the posts.. maybe.. hehehe..

Year 2011.. honestly it doesn't feel like it's 2011.. I don't know.. it just feels the same as 2010..
maybe it's because of the fact that I didn't celebrate it..
yesterday I only went to church to attend the new year's eve mass.. then I went home.. flipped through channel.. saw the countdown.. and continued watching movie.. that was it.. nothing really special..

Time does fly really fast.. it feels like I just came back from Berlin yesterday.. but no.. it's been 4 months already.. and I'm still jobless.. hyahahaha..
I actually planned to apply for grad school.. but I don't think I'm ready for it..
so I try to find a job first.. if there is any.. -___-;;

I don't have any resolution for this year.. I mean I'm a hardcore procrastinator.. so what's the point of having resolution list when I hardly do the list..
I just wanna be a better person.. and do better this year.. learn from last year mistakes.. yups.. that sounds pretty good to me..

P.S. : "The object of a new year is not that we should have a new year. It is that we should have a new soul" ~G. K. Chesterton~

Sweet memories..

2010-09-21T06:49:00.004+02:00

Someone forced me to do this.. Hehehe.. Naaahh.. I promised her to write sumthing about her.. And vice versa.. I planned to do this homework when I was still in Berlin due to the fact that I have super lame internet connection in Jakarta.. But I was busy with packing and stuff back then.. So here I am writing this as I promised her..
Warning: This is gonna be a long post.. So be prepared my friend!

Yunita Wongso Dw* Pa***i.. Yes.. I still remember her full name.. - think she's gonna flip out after reading that I just mentioned her full name.. U have a pretty name, young lady! *the owner of the name mentioned above asked me to censor her full name so that nobody can google her*

I met her for the first time at my dorm's common room.. "That's Juni's sister,"sumone told me.. I had heard the rumor about Juni's sister coming to Berlin before.. She wore winnie the pooh t-shirt at that time.. Honestly.. I didn't pay too much attention to the person who was wearing it.. Since pooh was more attratctive.. Hehehe
Btw Nit, do u still remember what we did back then? Here are some clues.. Debo, magazines, guys.. Hohoho.. Ring a bell?

On one gloomy day (at least for me), we chatted on msn.. Question! How on earth did I get ur msn? Actually.. I just random picked whoever was online on msn that day and Nita was the lucky one.. (You should be proud Nit.. Hahahaha) but I think we were still awkward at that time..

One fine day.. We finally went on our "first date".. Errrr.. This sounds really wrong.. But whatever.. Hahahahahaha.. We went to Impala.. (I miss Impala already.. One small elephant vanilla please!) I lent her my notes from my German course.. (Btw, I couldn't find the damn things anymore.. Did someone borrow those notes?) Honestly.. I couldn't recall what we were talking about.. (I surely need ginkgo biloba..) Nit, was that when we came besties?

As far as I remember after that we hung out pretty often, rite? Mostly we studied together.. Yes study..at Hugendubel, Starbucks, FU Bibliothek, where else? Me with my chemistry text books and notes.. Nita with her dictionary and literature books..
Nit, do u still remember? Once u studied at my place while I was busy decorating my ikea photo frames.. Hehehe.. In the end we went to Impala, u still studied while I was enjoying my time.. I helped u a bit tho..well at least I thought so..

Apart from study, we also went together for lunch, shopping, to movies, photo hunting, even just for coffee break. Ouuu..don't forget our trip visiting the doctors.. Nita was my gabbing partner in Berlin..we talked about everything..like eveeerrrryyyything.. She told me that I talked like a teenager.. -__-;; and it seemed that when we were together something weird happened.. The guy at Potsdamer Platz with his annoyed gf was epic.. Btw, how's that Bible study guy at Potsdam doing?

Gosh.. I really have a lot to tell about this one super friend of mine.. I seriously can go on and on and on and on.. She is a really good friend..best friend I would say.. Altho we are *beep* years apart.. I don't feel any generation gap.. Even when I was in a bad mood, her existence can really cheer me up.. I always felt comfie when I was with her.. She often told me "u're smart" and I hate it.. I am not smart Nit! Duh!? (This goes out to all of people who have ever said that to me too)

Now we are miles apart.. I cannot reach her in 15 minutes.. We cannot say.. Let's meet up at Potsdamer Platz..or I'll meet u at Wittenberg Platz..or let's go for lunch, what would u like to eat..
I knew this time would come..but not this soon.. Honestly.. I wasn't ready to say goodbye.. But hey..life goes on.. I have to face the fact that I have to talk to her via bbm.. (Thx to the mentality of Indonesian)
Nit.. I hope we can still be besties when we meet in future.. I hope u would still be the same or even better Nita.. I wish u all the best luck in the world.. And hope that u could find Mr. Ben.. Introduce him to me, u need my approval first.. Hahaha
Thx for being a part of my sucky life in Berlin, Nit! *big hug*

P.S.: "Remember, this is not real! Cyber world is the real one!" ~Nita and Meta~

Bachelor of Science...

2010-09-03T18:39:00.004+02:00

Yes.. after a long 4 and a half years.. I finally got my bachelor degree.. hurray..

Just like Tablo said, the fastest way to get out of school is either expulsion or graduation.. In my case.. I chose graduation..

I didn't do very well in my defense, I was panic and I just couldn't think.. I went blank.. nothing came into my mind..

After it was done, I was told to wait outside while they decided my grade.. And after I walked out the door.. everything came back into my mind.. I knew this was coming..

But hey.. life goes on.. honestly.. I don't really care about my grade.. I mean.. I just wanna effing graduate.. that's my goal.. but it seems that grade does matter for some people.. and especially for grad school..

Now I'm already in Jakarta.. with this super slow internet connection.. yes.. I left Berlin for good..

I've never thought that I would leave Berlin this soon.. okay.. I've always wanted to leave Germany as soon as possible..

but.. I think this is just too soon..

Honestly, I wasn't ready.. and I still feel I'm not ready..

I have this love-hate relationship with Berlin and I"m still not ready to end this relationship.. hehehehe..

So.. I finally got my bachelor degree.. and next?

I have no idea what I'm going to do.. I really don't..

I wanna continue my study.. because I think bachelor degree is not enough to survive in reality..

My sister told me to continue in US.. and I am tempted to do what she said..

but the nearest university to her place are UC Berkeley and Stanford..

Sis, u knoe what..ur little sister is not qualified enough to apply for grad school there..

Only miracle can make that happen.. and I'm not a 100% miracle believer..

P.S.: So long Berlin.. hope to see you again..

My birthday is coming..-_-;;

2010-05-07T10:33:00.011+02:00

Someone asked me to make a birthday wish list..
there might be things that are beyond the budget.. things that I can only beg my mom or sis to buy for me.. but hey.. it's my birthday wish list..

1. First on the list..I want the damn iPhone..

2. Miss Marc by Marc Jacobs bag

3. mouse ballerina.. also by Marc Jacobs..

4. Pieces of You by Tablo
5. The Amazing Adventures of Working Girl by Karen Burns
6. Confessions of an Ugly Stepsister by Gregory Maguire
7. How Starbucks Saved My Life by Michael Gill8. I want my mom and sister and Henney aka Drinaaa.. Drinaaa... to be here with me and celebrate my birthday together.. ^^

9. This watch.. yes.. by Marc Jacobs..
10. Scholarship to Stanford grad school would be really appreciated.. ;P

11. any kind of cheesecake from Cheesecake Factory as my birthday cake would be nice..
12. the most realistic one.. I need new earphones..

I'm running out of idea.. honestly I don't know what I want for my birthday..
*sigh* I'm seriously not excited about my birthday..
The fact that I'm getting older and haven't graduated yet is haunting me..

P.S. : I'll update the list if I know what I really want..

Happy 2nd Anniversary..

2010-05-01T13:14:00.004+02:00

It's been 2 years since I blogged here..
I know I'm not a good blogger.. I barely blog lately..
Well.. I think I become more and more anti social lately.. to the point that I start hating people..
I don't feel like telling stories.. sharing what's on my mind.. I just don't..
and the fact that nothing much happened in my life..
But I do still tweet.. but I don't tweet as often as I used to..
I think the micro blogging thingy really kills the real blogging..
Actually I did write a couple of posts.. but I just kept saving them or even deleting them..
It was just too much for me to click the publish post button..
Well.. some of the posts sounded too depressing... so I thought maybe I shouldn't publish them.. Let's hope that I can keep this blog alive..

P.S. : I just realized it's a good thing that I started on May Day so I always remember.. hehe..

Happy Birthday Mom!!

2010-04-03T23:00:00.006+02:00

Happy birthday mom!! aaahh.. I miss my mom.. -_-;;
We tend to quarrel quite a lot when we are together.. but when I'm far away from her.. I really wish that she could be here..
My life was a lot easier back then when she was around..
She always prepared breakfast for me.. She always packed lunch box for me.. She cooked dinner when we were in the mood to have dinner at home..
Even when I was in Jakarta doing my internship.. she was the one who drove me to work and picked me up from work..
And you know what.. I really love going shopping with my mom.. because I don't have to think if it looks good on me or not.. my mom would tell me.. hahaha..
My mom even hung out with me and my friends.. See.. I really have a cool mom! I actually also hung out with her and her friends.. Now I really miss my mom...
Once again.. Happy Birthday mom!!

P.S.: "A mother understands what a child does not say." ~ Jewish Proverb ~

Geneva Day 1

2010-03-24T22:44:00.003+01:00

I'm in Geneva.. yes.. I finally met my auntie ice kacang..Sandra.. after I dunno.. 6 years maybe?

She wanted to go to Berlin actually.. but due to some reasons.. she couldn't..

I was supposed to meet her in Aachen.. but since I was sick back then.. so it might not be a good idea..

Then she suggested to travel together in last week of March.. and I said yes.. if I passed my bloody inorganic chem exam.. which I did.. yeay for me!

And my radiochemistry lab is also over.. another yeay for me!

So here I am in Geneva.. visiting her.. and we're going to Milan on Saturday like early in the morning..

My trip began with a heart racing incident..

Fortunately I already checked in..online.. so I just needed to drop off my luggage..

I went to airport quite early.. according to the bvg route planner I was supposed to arrive at the Schoenefeld airport at 3 pm sharp!

Then it happened.. TRAFFIC JAM ladies and gentlemen.. it was 3 pm and I was still stuck in traffic jam.. It seemed that we couldn't drive through the tunnel.. I wasn't sure what happened tho..

A man asked the driver how long we had to wait.. and he said about 20 minutes.. and it was already 3:10 pm..

I was like.. holy cow.. I have to be there before 3:50 pm.. I'm so dead..

but after 20 minutes or more.. I can't remember.. we finally reached the airport.. and I was like running to the check in counter..

The lady said to me.. I only have 5 minutes before boarding..

But here I am in Geneva safe and bloated..

As soon as I arrived.. Sandra took me to the restaurant.. since I said I've always wanted to eat cheese fondue..

and she said that the restaurant is at the airport..

I ordered cheese fondue and Sandra had raclette.. the problem was the waitress didn't speak English.. yes.. she only spoke French.. and it seemed that she wasn't aware.. or she just didn't want to be aware that we don't speak French like at all..

After our foods came.. a man sat besides us told me that since I ate cheese fondue I wasn't allowed to drink cold water.. I had to drink sumthing warm.. He said that it could lead to congealing of the cheese to a lump in the stomach..

then we had a problem.. Sandra had no idea how to eat raclette.. so we decided to ask that man.. he showed us how to eat it..

gosh.. we laughed the whole time.. I mean.. we ordered food that we don't know how to eat it..note that the man only spoke a little English.. so we kinda had to guess what he meant..

Sandra said that after I finished with my fondue.. We could scrape the bottom of the pot because it formed a thin crust of the cheese at the bottom at the pot..

so we asked the waiter about that.. and hoped that he would do the sracping thingy..

he said that although it wasn't common but we could do that.. and he brought us the tools to scrape the crust.. Sandra told me in the other restaurant.. the waiter did the scraping thingy..

so we laughed again...what a weird restaurant..

and now here I am.. typing and bloated..

Sandra is asleep already.. she said that she was tired as hell..hehehe

I think I'm gonna sleep early today.. I feel kinda sleepy..

P.S.: Tomorrow I'm gonna explore the city all by my self..wish me luck..

Tiger year is here...

2010-02-14T20:31:00.011+01:00

Happy Chinese New Year everyone.. gong xi gong xi..ang pao na lai?

Hey sis.. ang pao na lai?
Tiger year is finally here.. to all the tiger year babies.. this is our year..
Speaking of new year.. I have my own way to start this year..
Yesterday I was invited to celebrate chinese new year's eve (what do you call it actually?) Another night of diet screwing.. but it was fun..
I went home like really late.. like 2:30 or 3:00 in the morning..
and of course my cousin was asleep already.. I went to the bathroom to brushed my teeth and stuff, so that I wouldn't wake him up..
It was pitch black when I walked out from the bathroom.. The corridor's lights were turned off already.. so I wanted to turn the lights on so that I could see..
Then the tragedy happened.. I forgot that there was a box full of empty beer bottles there.. rite where the switch was.. I stumbled over the box.. and my head, my forehead to be exact, hit the wall.. not that hard.. it wasn't bleeding or anything but it still hurt.. and I realized that I got a new bruise on my left ankle..
FYI, I fell last Sunday on my way to the library.. and I got one big bruise on my left knee and a small bruise on my right knee..
What a great way to start this tiger year..yes.. this is my year..
Hfff.. I've been thinking.. maybe I do have problems with my balance.. -_-;;

P.S. : Today is also Valentine's day.. Happy V-Day everyone.. eat your chocolate wisely.. hihihi.. and you.. are you enjoying your chocolate right now? *giggle giggle*

another February baby..

2010-02-06T20:12:00.008+01:00

Another February baby is having his birthday today..

Here comes the birthday boy..

Happy Birthday.. keep up the good work..
and I want my glasses back.. hahaha.. ~~it seems that we have similar glasses..~~

P.S. : Chemistry of non-metals.. that's how to say Chemie der Nichtmetalle in English.. and this subject sucks!!!!

Procrastinating...

2010-02-04T22:45:00.007+01:00

2 days in a row.. hahaha..
what an improvement... honestly.. it's not.. I'm procrastinating rite now..
I still have to cram lotsa things into my head..
aarrrrghhhhh... I dunno.. I dunno..
can't think... can't think...
I need extra brains.. anyone??
Please remind me, how on earth did I become a chemistry student?
I used to ask for more time.. but I realized.. more time couldn't help me.. motivation is what I need... and extra brains of course.. ;P

Anywayyyy..... someone is getting older today...
Yuhuuuu.. my brother in law.. Drinaaaaa...Drinaaaa....
Happy Birthday!! Wish u all the best.. Save the world from bad people!! Keep being a geek and antisocial.. yuhuu.. ouu.. thank you for curing my lappy..

I'm out.. I'll probably read a little bit more.. then off to bed.. (or maybe I'll just go to bed.. hihihi)

P.S. : Inorganic chemistry.. you and I are sooooo done!!!! ="=+

Here I am again..

2010-02-03T17:20:00.013+01:00

ok..ok.. I knoe I've abandoned my blog since..err.. when was the last time I blogged (is blog even a verb??)

yea..whatever..so here I am..
Actually nothing much happened to my life.. so I don't know what to write..
I tweet a lot tho.. and I update my tumblr quite often..

Speaking of tumblr.. my sister now has a blog.. woohooo.. congratz sis!
please do visit her blog.. cupilucu.tumblr.com
the idea came when we watched julie and julia.. plus she has nothing to do rite now..
but I think she's gonna quit blogging real soon.. since she's gonna be back to work..

Wait.. how come now I have so much to write.. hihihi..
maybe because I'm procrastinating rite now..
I'll have an exam next week.. and I still have a lot to study..

Anyway..the reason why I'm here is...
I wanna wish the birthday girl and boy happy birthday..
First on the list..Maria.. she's my partner in most of lab course.. esp. physical chemistry.. (the michael mentari team rocks!!)
Happy birthday dear.. you're 21 now? whew.. and you're gonna graduate real soon.. geez.. I feel so burdened.. ="=+
well.. I know u're not feeling well rite now.. get well soon.. and let's doing well in our next week exam.. and also good luck for ur presentation..

Next on the list.. Cho Kyu Hyun.. Happy birthday!!

I actually wished him happy birthday last year.. click here to open ur memory...
I'm still a huge fan of his voice.. it's still hard to believe that a great voice can come out from this silly dorky person's mouth..
here are some videos of him...happy watching!

1. She's gone live at radio
I'm still digging the song until now.. still at the same part.. the part when he hits the high notes..

credit: DeathEvanesque

2. 7 years love (fancam)
good song + great voice = *sigh*

credit: nonarepot

3. Let's not - Super Junior KRY
he sounds good in this song.. haha I really don't know what to say..

credit: ShinJH2702

4.Listen... to you (OST Pasta)
I think this is a remake song.. this song is on repeat mode in my playlist..

credit: bluprincez

Ok.. I'd better stop now and go back to my inorganic book.. the list will still keep going if I don't stop..

P.S. : My right shoulder is killing me.. it hurts so bad..

I need hot chocolate..

2010-01-12T20:54:00.003+01:00

You Are Raspberry Hot Chocolate

You are unique and creative. You never do anything the ordinary way. There's nothing fun about ordinary.
You are inspired by every little thing around you. You like to mashup your favorite things, and you often come up with interesting remixes.

You're the type of person most likely to invent a totally new type of hot chocolate. You're always dreaming up something new.
You are only limited by your imagination, and your imagination knows no limits!

What Flavor Hot Chocolate Are You?

Blogthings: We Have a Quiz for Almost Everything

P.S.: Now I'm craving for hot chocolate..great! -_-;;

One day with Marc Jacobs

2010-01-11T21:40:00.004+01:00

Marc Jacobs day.. featuring Marc by Marc Jacobs

Oh no.. I think I'm in love with Marc Jacobs..

P.S.: I really wanna buy the bag.. and the shoes.. and the watch.. >_<

Meri kurisimasu!!

2009-12-25T06:16:00.005+01:00

Have yourself a merry little Christmas..happy holiday everyone..

P.S.: I'm going to the 12 o'clock mass.. I just hope I could stay awake..>_<

chemistry?? why??

2009-12-11T20:39:00.002+01:00

You Are Chemistry

Of all the types, you are the most "mad scientist." You love to really get to the essence of how things work.
You are also a total brainiac and good at crunching out equations. You are very detail oriented.

You understand concepts and theories well. You are capable of very abstract thought.
You are inventive and creative. You might create a drug to make everyone smarter or come up with a totally new food flavor!

What Field of Science Are You?

Blogthings: Take a Quiz. Annoy Your Friends.

P.S.: so.. is this really my destiny? >_<;

yumm..fudge brownie..

2009-12-04T21:04:00.002+01:00

You Are a Fudge Brownie

You are outgoing and very friendly. You enjoy talking with people, and you always can find something to say.
You're never self-conscious, even when you embarrass yourself a little bit. You figure it's all part of the life experience.

You are truly comfortable in your own skin. You know you're not perfect, but who is really?
Because you're happy with yourself, you're able to be warm to those around you. You are a natural conversationalist and a true friend.

What Kind of Brownie Are You?

Blogthings: Take a Quiz. Annoy Your Friends.

P.S.: what do u think? what do u think? am I really like that? I don't think so..

gloom..

2009-11-21T22:39:00.005+01:00

I'm quite not in the mood of writing things. I sometimes still write so-not-important-things on my other blog.. and I also still keep tweeting..
The reason why I don't write that often is.. I kinda felt miserable lately..
When I feel this way.. it is not a good idea to write.. since everything I write will sound gloomy.. depressed.. suicidal.. *sigh*
So I'd rather save it for my self.. or else I would be sent to a psychiatrist..

I've been reading someone's blog since yesterday.. The blog belonged to Daul Kim. She was a top model. She was found dead in her apartment in Paris. She was only 20 years old. It was said that she committed suicide.
I didn't even know her until I read the news about her death.. then I found out that she had a blog.
Somehow I enjoyed reading her blog.. and I like her style as in how she dressed herself.
It's such a pity that her life had to end like this..
RIP Daul Kim..

P.S. : the fact that the sun hides itself quite early these days doesn't help my mood to become a little brighter..

I'm gonna dress up as a cute puppy..

2009-10-25T20:41:00.002+01:00

You Should Dress Up As a Dog

You are a friendly, playful person who embraces life heartily. You are truly carefree and able to live in the moment.
You can be a bit suspicious of strangers at times, but you are always welcoming of old friends.

You are intelligent and sensitive. You tend to know what people need from you, and you're happy to help them out.
You are very loyal and selfless. You are content to be a good friend... no strings attached.

What Animal Should You Dress Up As?

Blogthings: Free Quizzes for Everyone

P.S. : yes.. I'm procrastinating..>_<;;

Lazy Saturday..

2009-10-24T22:34:00.006+02:00

I knoe.. I knoe.. I've abandoned this blog since like forever.. blame it on the dial-up internet connection in Jakarta..

So...yes.. I'm back to my real life..back to the damn cold Berlin..
my lab days has already begun.. and I'm so unmotivated and scared as hell at the same time..
my 1st experiment is already such a failure.. I have to do it from scratch again.. and I don't have that much time.. for real.. I only have like 3 and a half weeks left.. and I still haven't finished my first 2 experiments.. I'm so dead.. >_<;; I really have this bad feeling, that I would fail this lab course.. T_T

Anyway.. Nita and I made 떡볶이 (ddukbokki)..err..yeah whatever the spelling is.. it's basically hot and spicy rice cake.. Nita has been craving for this since she heard that Lena was coming.. (based on what Nita said) Unfortunately.. Lena ended up not coming for some reasons.. So.. I was forced to make ddukbokki.. but I think in the end Nita was the one who made it.. ou..ou.. when we put the rice cake into the boiled water.. we also put the preservatives thing.. hahaha.. I just hope none of us will get food poisoning.. Peggy also joined us..well.. Juni, Sugih and his gf also joined us..but then they left earlier.. Nita and Peggy stayed for a while to have latte machiato flavoured tea.. whoa.. it's been a while since I had my "girls nite out".. it was fun..

Since I had fun today.. it means that I have to be a nerd tomorrow.. yes.. I have to do my assignments and stuff!! *sigh*

P.S. : This is what ddukbokki supposed to look like.. we forgot to take a pic of our home-made ddukbokki..-_-;;

Jakarta here I am..

2009-08-17T03:26:00.004+02:00

I've been in Jakarta since 2 weeks ago.. I've been working for 2 weeks..

yups.. I started my internship rite away...

it was actually fun.. but it was effing tiring..

I haven't... not even once.. left the lab (yes.. my office is lab) on time..

I'm supposod to work from 8 am to 4:30 pm.. but I just can forget the idea of leaving at 4:30 sharp.. I don't think it will happen..

I haven't met my friends either.. Every weekend I feel like doing nothing.. I just wanna stay at home and sleep the whole day.. and of course it won't happen either.. since I need to go to the malls.. hihihihihi...

Yesterday I went to Senci.. finally.. and I met my uncle and auntie with their kids.. gosh.. my cousins are like different.. as far as I remember they were still young and young.. they grew up like a lot.. I feel so damn old..

Strangely.. I think we can get along really well.. huahahaha...

My little cousin even has a boyfriend now.. hihihihi..

P.S.: *sigh* It seems that I'm not that young anymore..

Jakarta here I come..

2009-07-30T07:52:00.004+02:00

I'm flying back to Jakarta today.. yuhuuu.. after 3 years..
Oooo.. I'm so freaking excited and scared at the same time..
I'm gonna be in Jakarta for like 2 months..
Since I have to do an internship.. so it's not like I have 2 months of holiday..
but it's ok.. I really look forward to doing my internship tho..
One thing that make me quite sad is that I can't skype with my sis for 2 months..T_T
I'm so gonna miss fan girling with my sis..

Yesterday I went out for lunch with my 2 besties.. it was fun.. but I think yesterday was not my day.. at least with machine.. I really had problems with machine, computer and stuff...
First.. The stupid me forgot to take out my card from the machine after I paid the freaking GEZ..
And I just realized that I didn't have my card at 5 or so.. and of course the bank was already close..
So I had to make a phone call to the service thingy.. and of course the one who answered the call was a machine.. and here goes the second one..
This lady voice said I had to say "service" if I was a customer.. I did.. like 3 times.. but the effing lady said.."Im sorry I don't understand" sumthing like that.. Then Peggy tried to say it.. and it worked.. the lady recognized Peggy's "service"... LADY R U EFFING KIDDING ME?????
Ok.. so the card thingy was done.. I just blocked my card.. just to make sure.. Actually if we forget to take out our card from the machine.. after 20 second it will remain inside the machine..and then the card will be sent..
But I thought.. I just blocked my card.. in case I did lose it somewhere..
The third one.. I wanted to burn cd.. it really took about half an hour or so until it was done..
but then I couldn't play the cd.. R U FOR REAL????
Gosh.. from all of the days.. why did it have to be yesterday????? one day before I fly back to Jakarta? *sigh*

Okay then.. I'd better get ready.. I have to go to the bank because of my card..

P.S.: I passed most of my exam.. still waiting for the biochemistry result.. but I think I would fail..

P.P.S.: please do pay a visit to my other so-not-important-things-to-share.. it's basically when I have a quick thought and don't feel like writing too much..

I'm an ice cream sandwich..

2009-07-25T08:45:00.002+02:00

You Are an Ice Cream Sandwich

You are well grounded, reliable, and very balanced.
You love to work hard, but you also know how to take it easy.

People might be surprised to know you have a very goofy side to you.
You like to let loose and have fun. You just don't let yourself go too crazy!

What Frozen Treat Are You?

one more to go..

2009-07-23T09:02:00.006+02:00

Updated list..
Exams:
~~1. Inorganic chemistry 3~~ *passed*
~~2. Physical chemistry 5~~
~~3. Organic chemistry 3~~ *passed*
~~4. Radiochemistry~~ (I doubt that I would pass)
5. Biochemistry 1

Assignments:
~~1. Summary~~ *submitted*
~~2. Commentary~~ *submitted*

So.. one more exam.. then I fly to Jakarta.. yuhuuu...
OMG.. I passed inorganic.. I can't believe it.. huahahahaha..
I passed organic too..
Actually I could have done better.. but hey I had 3 exams in a row.. my head was about to explode back then.. So I'm pretty happy about the fact that I passed.. hahaha..
Now I have to focus on my biochemistry learning..
I still need extra brains though.. anyone??

Seeing this is really a perfect way to start my day..

credit: princekyu

P.S.: Remixing the Human Soul is gonna be my biochemistry-learning-playlist..^^ love it..

Postman Pat

2009-07-17T21:45:00.003+02:00

It's Friday...
here is the updated list..
Exams:
1. Inorganic chemistry 3: Solid-state chemistry
2. Physical chemistry 5: Spectroscopy
3. Organic chemistry 3: Bioorganic chemistry
4. Radiochemistry
5. Biochemistry

Assigments
1. Summary
2. Commentary

For today.. I am not gonna do anything.. like not a thing.. yes.. I really need to rest my brain.. My brain is kinda over-used.. hahahaha..

Do u guys know Postman Pat? I really enjoyed this show when I was a kid..

credit: uploader

I have to admit.. it's quite weird seeing it now.. I mean the animation is kinda lame..of course.. postman pat was aired in like 1981.. originally.. but I first saw it when I was in kindergarten)
I used to adore postman pat.. I even reenacted the scene from postman pat with my polly pockets.. I created the neighborhood just like in the show.. and I reenacted what I just watched.. haha..
Ou.. I miss my childhood.. I do think I have a bunch of great childhood memories..
I was a happy kid back then..

P.S.: I think I'm gonna sleep early today..

Exams..

2009-07-15T18:54:00.006+02:00

These are my exams for the next 3 week..starting for today.. (too lazy to translate..)
~~1. Anorganische Chemie 3~~
2. Physikalische Chemie 5
3. Organische Chemie 3
4. Radiochemie
5. Biochemie 1

And I still have 2 assignments due on July 22nd or 23rd
1. Summary
2. Commentary

Don't ask how the exam was.. -_-;;
I still have to learn for tomorrow..

P.S. : See.. life of a chemistry student isn't that easy..

I don't care..

2009-07-10T22:40:00.005+02:00

I wish I could say that about my exams.. the problem is.. I do care about my exams.. since I won't be here the whole summer break.. again..
So I have to pass all the exams whatever it takes..
gosh.. it's been a year.. last year I did face the same problem..
So.. next week.. 3 exams in a row.. and I still have to write this commentary thingy..
I am tired as hell rite now.. I think I am about to pass out..
I still kinda have to learn though.. *sigh*

I keep repeating this song over and over again..

credit: xJAESARANGHAE

P.S.: there is someone who really thought that my last name is cullen.. ^^

Again and again..

2009-06-28T13:45:00.004+02:00

It's been a month (or more?) since I first listened to again and again..
They 2PM even ended their promotion already.. they are now promoting their second single..
But I never get tired of this song somehow..
Everytime I see sentence that contains again and again.. I always end up singing it in my head..
Even if someone says again and again.. I always sing it in my head.. hahahaha..
I love seeing these boys performing this song wearing "normal" outfit..

credit: CodeMonmonSeason3

So.. exams are coming.. my presentation is coming.. I even have an exam tomorrow.. oral!!
I think my stressful day is coming..
Tomorrow I have this Gefahrstoffprüfung (too lazy to translate this to English.. anyone?)
I'm freaking out.. it is said that the exam will take about 1 hour or so.. what? what?
Face to face with the professor all by myself.. I am soooo gonna forget everything.. as in EVERYTHING!!! Although my friends told me the exam is easy.. but still.. I suck at this kinda thing.. *hyperventilating*
Okay.. I guess I have to get back on track now..

P.S.: I also still have to write 3 lab reports..*sigh* life of a chemistry student is not that easy..

I'm an intellect??

2009-06-17T22:03:00.003+02:00

Your Gift is Intellect

You are a big thinker, and you're always playing with new ideas. You are curious about the world. You enjoy learning and developing new theories.

You enjoy researching, analyzing, and solving problems. Thinking hard feels good! You're the type of person who finds most mental tasks to be easy. You love to stretch your brain.

What's Your Gift?

P.S. : Isn't this another way to say that I'm a geek??

I'm such a fan girl..

2009-06-11T21:32:00.003+02:00

credit: damon70

OMG.. I used to have a huge crush on him when I was a little girl.. I collected every article about him from magazines.. I even almost went to his showcase in Singapore.. too bad my mom delayed our departure.. so I couldn't go.. but my sis and my cousin did go to the concert.. He actually came to Jakarta.. He stayed at Gran Mahakam hotel and had a showcase at one of cafes at Taman Ria Senayan.. (hahahaha..yes.. I still can remember..) but I couldn't go because it was in my final week and of course my mom wouldn't allow me to go esp. alone.. But look how he looks now.. He still looks the same.. well.. not exactly the same.. he looks more mature.. I think I fall for him again..^^ hihihi.. I'm such a fan girl..
Speaking of fan girl.. I turned my sister into a super junior's fan.. hihihihi.. actually I have told her about them since last year.. when I was there on summer break.. But a few days ago.. all of sudden she told me.. she put my korean songs playlist in imeem on repeat mode.. and she started to like super junior.. she blamed me for that.. ;P
"They're so cute and they're so gay" that's what she said..hahaha.. If those crazy teenage ELF happened to read this, I'm soooo dead... She even has her own korean songs playlist now.. hihihi..
she's officially a korean songs listener .. ^^ well.. most of the songs are super junior's though.. hihihihi Hey sis let's spazz over super junior together.. (although I'm more into 2PM lately) well.. maybe I'm gonna make her to like 2PM too.. we'll see about that.. I just realized.. maybe I am indeed korean boyband expert like Lena said.. hahahaha..

P.S.: I still can't believe I'm still fan girling at this age...><

Birthday Presents..

2009-06-09T23:07:00.004+02:00

It's been a month since my birthday..
I've wanted to write a post about my birthday presents since I dunno.. a month ago?
But as you guys probably already knew.. I'm a true procrastinator, so I just didn't do it..
So here we go.. (The fact that I'm writing this rite now proves that I'm procrastinating..O_o)

Meike brought me birthday cake all the way from London.

Tigger Chocolate Cake

She even brought a knife so we could eat the cake rite away.. and guess what.. we did..in the middle of inorganic chemistry lecture.. hahaha.. so we were munching happily while the professor were talking.. ;P

So here are my birthday presents...

Birthday presents..^^

On the top right..it's a birthday card from my sis.. I love every card she sent me..^^ ouu.. I heard she bought me hoodie.. yeay..
errr.. does that mean no map the soul book album for me??

Next to the right.. it's a pooh bowl from Chrischani.. She told me that she felt bad because she couldn't give me a better present.. and I told her it's okay.. I love everything that has something to do with Winnie the Pooh..^^

Next one.. It's a freaking blender from the doctors.. I've always wanted to have a blender.. but I just realized.. I do need to peel the fruits before I toss into the blender, rite? -_-;; Btw, mine is more sophisticated than my sis'.. hahahaha..

Next.. I got a book and name label stickers from Meike.. Name label stickers.. I left mine back there in Jakarta.. I like to put a name label on my books..

Then.. I got ugly dolls and hair pins from Debo and my cousin.. Finally I have an ugly doll.. and u knoe what.. it is really ugly.. as in it really looks dirty.. hahaha..

Last but not least.. I got little miss sunshine sweatshirt and a self-made birthday card from Nita..
hahaha.. She actually asked me what did I want.. and I told her to see my wishlist.. but in the end she gave me a sweatshirt. I didn't list sweatshirt if I'm not mistaken..but I'm such a huge fan of sweatshirt lately..

In conclusion.. I love all the presents.. oh puh-leaassee..everyone loves presents.. -_-;;
Thank you guys...

P.S.: “A hug is the perfect gift; one size fits all, and nobody minds if you exchange it.” ~unknown~

This is our song..

2009-06-08T19:44:00.010+02:00

credit: IAmOnlyLove

All of sudden.. I remember about them.. hahahaha.. gosh.. it's been more than 10 years..
I was not a fan of boyband when I was a little girl.. but my sister was..
But I remember I was the one who introduced Code Red to my sis.. I first saw them on MTV.. I was such an MTV freak back then.. I saw this music video (MV).. and I was like.. not another boyband.. and gosh.. look at the MV.. it's so lame.. and they're so not good looking..
So.. I knew that they were coming to Jakarta and told my sister about it..
she was such a crazy fan girl back then...she really did what a fan girl would do.. she went to the hotel where the boyband stayed.. she went to the meet and greet.. (yes.. and she didn't wanna go to Epik High meet and greet..><) she went to the showcase..and stuff like that..

My sister didn't like them at first.. I mean.. just look at the MV.. but it turned out that these boys were really nice in person.. plus.. their manager was quite good looking.. hahaha.. so..my sister became their fan.. and her friend also.. (her partner in crime)

Believe it or not.. I did (or still do?) have a picture of me with the boys.. yes.. all of them.. No.. I was not a fan of them.. and no.. I did not become one either..
So what's the story behind it?
One day my sister knew that Code Red would go to Planet Hollywood to have dinner. I have no idea how she knew about this. She was indeed a true fan girl. Okay.. back to the story. She told me and my mom to go to Planet Hollywood first "to have dinner", since she would be late because of her English course, so that she was allowed to get in to Planet Hollywood later. So we went to Planet Hollywood and yes, they really had dinner there. It seemed that the other fan girls knew about this too, but of course the security guy wouldn't let them in.
So the brilliant idea worked, my sister and her friend were allowed to get in because her mom and her little sister were having dinner inside.
In the end the boys were having this photo session, since there were many fan girls waiting for them. My sis and her friend went to this photo session.
We were done with our dinner and my mom were busy with the bill. I just sat there waiting.
Then it happened..........................................................................

My mom realized I was still there and she was like.. why on earth are you still here and not going to the photo session with your sis?
I was like.. why on earth should I do that?
In the end I was scolded by my mom for not going to the photo session thing and of course I cried. (just to remind you guys.. this happened when I was 10 or 11)
We were still there when the photo session ended. The photo session was in the VIP room or sumthin', I can't remember. My sis came and my mom still scolded me (and I was still crying)
Then the boys came out from the VIP room and my mom forced me to take a picture with the boys. She even told my sis and her friend to call them over. WTH??? (I was still tearing)
And voila.. the boys came and I got to take picture with them...all of them.They even tried to cheer me up, they hugged me, one of them, I can't remember who, even wiped my tears. WTH?? At that time I didn't say a word.. Oh come on.. I was 10 and I was such a shy little girl back then.

So I'm going to clarify this now, if one of them happen to land here and read this.
Boys, I didn't cry because I couldn't take a pic with you,but I was scolded by mom for not taking pic with you guys. But I have to admit you guys were really nice, thank you for being nice to me. Honestly I had no interest in taking pic with you guys, but I guess that made my mom happy, so I just did it for my mom's sake. No hard feeling, okay?

P.S.: Hey sis, do you think we still have the picture?

Sempurna Battle

2009-06-06T12:15:00.009+02:00

Which version do you like? This song was really famous back then.. I dunno.. a year ago.. 2 years ago..

The 1st one is the original version by an Indonesian band named Andra and the Backbone.

The 2nd and 3rd one is a remake by an Indonesian talented female singer named Gita Gutawa. (Sorry, I'm Gita-Gutawa-biased ;P)

The 4th one is also a remake by a singer named Nicholas Teo. I have no idea who he is. I just found this on youtube this morning..

For me.. Andra and the Backbone's version won.. not because it was the first one I heard.. But the acoustic feel makes the song pretty catchy.. unfortunately.. they're not really good at live..

Gita Gutawa's version.. She remade the song for a movie soundtrack.. Version 1.. I would say it would be a perfect background music during the credit title.. I like this version better then her 2nd version.. I admit she has a beautiful voice.. but somehow her voice makes the song sound sad.. at least for me..

Nicholas Teo's version.. as I said I have no idea who he is.. but thanks to google and wikipedia.. ;P I guess he's pretty famous in Malaysia.. since I don't understand Mandarin like at all, I have no idea what he's saying (or singing). He also used acoustic guitar as accompaniment like the original version, but he also added other music instruments so it gave the song some kinda pop feel.. What I don't understand is..what's with the "sempurna"? Why on earth does he have to mention the word "sempurna"? I know it's the title of the song, but why can't he just translate it to Mandarin or just omit it? It sounds weird..and the fact that he rolled the R when he said "sempurna" made it even weirder..

But hey.. that's what I think.. It's just a matter of taste.. I believe everyone has a different taste in music.. so be nice to me..!!

So.. what do you think???

P.S.: Anyone wants to translate the lyrics to English?

Bite..Bite..

2009-06-03T22:32:00.003+02:00

I really feel like biting people..
ugh.. I think my head is gonna explode in any minute..
I still have to cram a few things into my head..a few?? lotsa things..T_T
I was listening to allkpop radio while I was learning..
and this song has been played for like I don't know 10 times?
So it's stuck in my head now..

song of the day:

I guess I should stop now..still have to get back to my physical chemistry learning.. why on earth do I have to learn about this spectroscopy thing?? -_-;;

P.S.: Wish me luck guys..

What is a name?

2009-06-03T08:11:00.006+02:00

I just know that my name has a meaning..

What funny is.. my Christian name is also Margaretha.. Gosh.. I just revealed my Christian name to public for the 1st time.. hahahaha.. so..let's take a look what Margaret means..

Meta means pearl..
Okay.. so from now on I know what to say if someone asks me what my name means.. not just say that meta is the ungünstige (what is it called in English? unfavourable?) position compares to ortho and para.. errr..that sounds so chemistry.. yeaa.. I'll stick to pearl.. haha..

You guys can check your name here..

Question.. why am I still at home at this hour??
First of all.. my first lecture for today starts at 10..
Second of all.. I think I'm gonna skip lectures today..(yups.. plural..)
I'd rather stay at home and continue learning for my exam and be a good person..
I don't wanna sit there in the lecture hall and curse the professor every second..
Although I like my last lecture for today.. which is radiochemistry...
but.. I still has a lot to learn.. -_-;;
I have to pass the exam no matter what..

P.S. : Wonder why I still have the time to write all of this nonsense instead of learning..

Vortrag..T_T

2009-06-01T22:37:00.005+02:00

aaaaa...
I'll have my first ever presentation in German in less than 24 hours.. *hyperventilate*
I did practice a couple of times..but I'm pretty sure I will forget everything tomorrow..
what worries me a lot is whether the others will understand me..oh come on.. I'm a foreigner.. what do you expect? ;P
and the fact that I suck at public speaking is also one of the reason why I'm so scared..
Thinking about how I have to stand in front of people, explain things that I don't understand in language that I still suck at, scares the heck out of me..
What if someone ask questions? I'm not really a quick-thinker, so I can't answer things on the spot like that..
I think I'm gonna stand there with my blank mind like an idiot tomorrow..-_-;;

P.S.: Please do wish me luck.. I really need it..^_^;;

너라고.. It's you..

2009-05-18T20:20:00.009+02:00

Actually I'm kinda Epik High biased..
So here's the story.. My sister wouldn't go to the meet and greet in SF..
But then the morning before the concert she found out that her friend was going to the concert..
So I asked him to get me a copy of the book album.. but unfortunately all the merchandise were sold out.. crazy, isn't it??
He said the concert was awesome.. I read all the fan accounts in mapthesoul.com, they all said the same thing.. it was great.. and I saw a few fancams in youtube..
yeaaa.. my sis wouldn't like it.. hahaha
Anyway.. I guess I just have to ask my sister to buy me the book album.. (and I see green light here..^^)

So apart from Epik High.. the second single from Super Junior is stuck in my head.. It's from the repackage album.. the company sure know how to gain money from those crazy teen fan girls..
Anyway.. I really like the song.. it's an upbeat tempo kinda song..
I've been listening to the song for like 5 times in a row in a day..
Here's the video (drama version).. there is another version..dance version..(actually there is a leak version too..)

credit: wondersmurf

Here's their very first performance of the song.. The choreography is ok.. nothing really special..besides the chest popping part..
notice that one of them is wearing black and white pants.. hihihi
and what's with the gray (or is it silver?) hair?? yeah.. fail..
Kyuhyun's voice is great..

credit: phyllisbun

P.S.: I have a new haircut.. I become the mini (and chubby) version of my sis..

What time is it now?

2009-05-11T09:55:00.013+02:00

It's 2PM....*screaming like a crazy fan girl*

I think they made their debut last year.. but back then I didn't really pay attention to them..
I saw their music video "10 out of 10" and saw their debut stage... I was like.. well just another boyband.. and the fact that they were only jumping around on the stage.. doing some acrobatic things.. the boys failed to impress me..

However.............
Ever since they released their new single "Again and Again"..I've fallen for these boys.. they are effing hot.. and one of 'em has freaking six packs abs..*faint*
FYI.. these boys are younger than me.. gosh I feel like a pervert.. -_-;;
The song is somehow addictive.. I can't get it out of my head.. I even can listen to the song like 10 times in a row.. no kidding..

And their live performances.. I love 'em all.. enuff said.. just take a look at their videos..

credit: time2sub

credit: Symbelmyns

the guy with the half-zipped shirt has 6 packs abs.. *faint*

P.S. : I heart 2PM.. *giggling like a teenage fan girl*

The birthday girl is here..

2009-05-09T22:07:00.013+02:00

Yups.. It's me.. I'm the birthday girl.. ^^ I still can remember last year I had my birthday in Bingen.. One year has passed.. just like that..*deep sigh*

So unlike last year.. this year I'm going nowhere..
I just had lunch with my cousin..
We went to Show Me Nudelbar in Mehringdam.. because I was told to eat noodles..
According to the Chinese beliefs, noodles are eaten on birthday. They symbolize long life in the years to come..
I'm not really a supersticious person though.. but I did it anyway..
As appetizer we had spring rolls filled with duck and cabbage..

It supposed to be 4 pieces.. 2 of them were already inside our stomach.. ;P

For the main course.. I had noodles with chicken and vegetables in peanut sauce..

Chicken Ban Me

Last night my sister told me that I should buy a birthday cake..
My grandma once told me.. one has to eat birthday cake on one's birthday..the reason is the same why people have to eat noodles.. in order to have a long life..
I like this cake idea a lot better than the noodles.. ;P
So.. I went to buy myself a cake..
well.. one slice.. err.. 2 actually.. one for me and one for my cousin.. The cake was really good..

I think the cake is called Concerto or sumthin' like that

Look at the printed chocolate.. so cute..^^

So.. that's my birthday story for this year..
I wanna say thank you for all the birthday wishes via facebook, msn, phone call, sms, in person, etc..
It really means a lot to me..^^ Sorry I can't reply all your messages..
Once again I wanna say.. thank you.. terima kasih.. danke schön.. 감사합니다.. ありがとうございました..

P.S. : Look what I got this morning when I checked my e-mail.. Daniel Henney..ILU..*fan girling mode on*
P.P.S. : My cousin just told me.. the gold thing on the cake is real gold..

My Birthday Wishlist..

2009-05-07T20:03:00.004+02:00

The title says it all..
So I'm gonna keep this post short and simple..
Here's my birthday wish list..

Map the Soul book album
Pieces of You by Tablo
Ugly dolls keychain
Egg molds..
Mouse? since my puppy mouse is broken.. :'(
Bento box
Wicked: The Life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West by Gregory Maguire
Confessions of an Ugly Stepsister by Gregory Maguire

that's all for now... I don't even know what I want.. I'm gonna update it when I know what I want..

P.S. : I hate the fact that my b'day is getting closer and closer.. (in other words.. I'm going to be older.. T_T)

Podiatrist.. Pediatrician..

2009-05-02T09:04:00.005+02:00

After a long discussion with my sis last night..
I just found out.. there is indeed a foot doctor..
it is called a podiatrist.. not to be mistaken with pediatrician..
hahahaha..
We even discussed how to pronounce the words.. and they do sound different.. hahaha..
Podiatry is the branch of medicine that deals with the diagnosis, treatment, and prevention of disorders of the human foot.
Pediatrics is the branch of medicine that deals with the care of infants and children and the treatment of their diseases.
It's nothing important actually.. but that's us.. we love to talk about unimportant things..

P.S. : I think I need to go to a podiatrist.. There's sumthing wrong with my toes..

Happy 1st Anniversary..

2009-05-01T20:51:00.004+02:00

Time flies...
It's been a year since I moved here..
It's been a year since my first post..

I know that I'm not a good blogger..
I don't write that often.. I mean on a daily basis..
I only write when I have sumthin on my mind.. sumthin to share..
I just realized I often wrote when I had exam or when I was stressed out..-_-;;
or.. when I had to do sumthin.. in other words.. I am a true PROCRASTINATOR..
hahahaha...

There were times, when I was not sure whether I should write about things on my mind or not.. because they had sumthin to do with other people..
I was like.. should I write about this?? What if that person read it?? Would I hurt her/his feeling??
I know that only a few people read my blog.. but still.. I would feel bad.. so these kinda things go straight to my diary.. ;P

Also.. I realized that I should NOT write when I'm in a bad mood..when I'm depressed.. when I'm really sad..
Gosh.. I really can write things that sound sooooooo horrible..
It happened a couple of times.. but in the end.. I just didn't publish them.. ^^;

Well.. we'll see how this blog thing will go in the future..

P.S. : May Day...May Day...^^

I miss pigtails...

2009-04-27T19:48:00.005+02:00

You are Pigtails

You are fun loving, sweet, and cute. You radiate happiness and pure joy.
Your idea of style is wearing the things you love most. And you love colorful, happy things.

At your best, you are optimistic and open hearted. You find the good in everything.
At your worst, you refuse to grow up. You are very prone to daydreaming and fantasizing.

What Hairstyle Are You?

P.S. : I have lotsa things on my mind rite now..-_-;;

Epik High showcase..

2009-04-07T22:12:00.007+02:00

I'm back from Göttingen.. with Nita.. (she finally decided to go with me..)
It was really fun.. I always had fun there..
We also went to Hannover and had waffles.. yuhuuu..
Not really in the mood of sharing stories about my trip..
maybe next time..

so.. the title says it all..
I was just finished watching epik high online showcase..
It was freaking awesome...
my fave goes to map the soul acoustic version..
so I'm just gonna post the 2nd part..

credit: mapthesoul

here are the other parts of the video..part 1, part 3, part 4
for real.. they're awesome.. although I don't understand Korean at all.. I only can understand the english part.. but it's worth to watch..
ou.. I heard twilight in the song "scenario" and I like MYK's voice.. ^^
happy watching!!

P.S. : Aaarrrrgghhh.. my holiday is almost over.. T_T

Map the soul...

2009-03-27T08:52:00.005+01:00

Map the soul!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....
I'm soooo waiting for today.. why? why? since today MAP THE SOUL is released..
what is actually map the soul? It's the new album from epik high.. It's a book album (a music CD and a book in one package).. and it's bilingual..
check the site out.. www.mapthesoul.com
The music video is out already.. I just need to wait for it to be subbed.. since I don't understand Korean at all.. I only can understand "no reason to live without you" and "L O V E you I was made to be with you".. I'll post the video when it's subbed..
I've seen the video already.. as expected from epik high.. they always have a great concept for their music video.. It's kinda creepy but I think it's kinda unique.. I think it really has something to do with the lyrics.. so I'll talk about this after it's subbed..
I really want to have the album..
fyi, the album can only be purchased from the website.. they sell it all by themselves.. since they're not under any major label anymore..
and I also want to have the book..
they haven't post the price for the international buyer though..
but I'm pretty sure the shipping cost will be freaking expensive..
so as soon as they post the price.. I have to do the calculation thing..
Since I'm only a poor jobless student -_-;;..I kinda have to ask permission from my mom or my sis first..
And the fact that I don't have credit card and I have no experience of buying things online...
I really have to beg my sis and my mom... since I'm dying to have the book album and the book.. aaaaaaaaaa......

P.S. : So.. I already have two things for my birthday wish list.. ;P

cold..cold..

2009-03-25T17:56:00.003+01:00

I have a real bad cold.. my nose is red already because of the runny nose and the so-not-soft-tissue..
For real.. this is not a really good time to have a cold.. I have to study for organic chemistry exam.. which is on next Monday.. yes.. NEXT MONDAY...
Studying with runny nose is not a good idea..
aaarrrgggh.. I think I'm gonna screw up my exam.. again.. yes.. AGAIN...
Actually I passed the exam already.. *cough* with not a really good grade *cough*
but the professor gave us a chance to get a better grade.. (is it actually called grade? or score?)
Although my friend told me.. the exam is gonna be reeeeeeeeaaaaallllllyyyyyy difficult..
and the fact that I haven't studied that much.. so.. the chance that I'm gonna get a better grade is like 0%..
So.. I've been thinking.. maybe I should not take the exam.. -_-;;
I don't know...

P.S. : The weather here is going crazy.. it's getting colder and colder..

Hands off!!

2009-03-23T08:35:00.004+01:00

I know that I was born with chubby cheeks.. (and they're getting chubbier these days..-_-;;)
and people are tend to pinch my cheeks..
My friend once said they're irresistible..
And u know what..
I'm sick of people trying to pinch my cheeks...
I'm starting to get annoyed..
my cheeks have been pinched since I was a little..
Do I have to be treated like this in my whole life?
I was helpless when I was a little.. I couldn't say no..
but now.. wanna know how I feel...
I feel like screaming...get your hands off my freaking cheeks!!!!!

P.S.: I'm really having a bad cold..-_-;;

Tablo's family picture..

2009-03-19T19:59:00.003+01:00

This has to be the coolest family picture I've ever seen...

credit: seoulbeats

P.S. : “She got her good looks from her father. He's a plastic surgeon.”~Groucho Marx~ ^^

Dear horror movie maker..

2009-03-14T19:11:00.003+01:00

I only have one simple request..
please let the good looking guy stay alive until the end of the movie.. don't kill him in the middle of the movie..
If your movie sucks.. at least I still have the motivation to finish watching it..
well.. if the movie sucks.. the only reason why I wanna watch it, is because of the good looking guy.. I wanna give my eyes something nice to see..
I don't wanna waste my time watching the spooky female ghost with beautiful long hair or creepy psychopath..
so please..please..please.. let him stay alive..or if you really wanna kill him.. kill him at the very end of the movie..
thank you for your attention..

P.S. : In this case the good looking guy is not the psychopath.

sincerely yours,
a girl who enjoys spazzing over good looking guys to keep her sanity.

Sorry..sorry..updated

2009-03-13T22:21:00.007+01:00

call me crazy.. call me insane.. call me whatever you wanna call me..
but I have to admit.. I like super junior's new single..
I even like the new album..
And honestly.. I was waiting for the release of the video.. why??
because I saw this video of 2 guys.. Nick Bass and Trent Dickens..(who are apparently the choreographers) dancing to the song..
They were like awesome..

credit: SapphireJunior10

from then on.. the song keeps playing in my head..
Actually I'm not.. well I wasn't boyband listener.. ever since I'm into k-pop.. I shamefully listen to boyband type of music.. -_-;;
but the song is so addictive.. the tune is pretty catchy..

Actually the boys did their first performance already.. but the choreography can hardly be seen because of the lighting.. the stage.. the cameraman.. and the fact that the band has 13 member.. so I'll just post their video.. well.. there isn't much dancing either.. but it's a lot better for the eyes..

credit: CJWTown

I like the choreographers better tho..
Oh.. I can't believe that I'm fan-girling rite now.. and Kyu Hyun's voice.. it never fails to melt my heart..
I think I'm really losing my mind..

Finally I found a video of their live performance with better lighting, stage, and a lot better cameraman.. I can see the whole choreography now..

Speaking of me turning into a boyband listener.. my mom asked me if I knew the song right now by akon.. and I was like.. WHAT???
She listens to Akon?? and I listen to crappy boyband??
Shame on me!!! -_-;;

I think I should stop rite now.. before I turn 100% into a teenage fan-girl.

P.S. : Today is Friday the 13th.. spooky...

Aku suka kamu..

2009-02-23T21:46:00.006+01:00

A friend of mine.. let say his name Andy.. ;P I knew that he has learned some Indonesian.. since Indah were in charge in organic lab.. So sometimes he kinda said sumthing in Indonesian to me.. like.. "Selamat Pagi".. "Apa kabar?".. I even taught him to say "Aku suka sushi".. hehehe
Last Friday I asked him what else he had learned.. and all of sudden.. he said.. "Aku suka kamu."
I was laughing my ass off.. ok.. not really.. since I was in lecture hall and surrounded by people..
He had no idea why I was laughing.. and if I didn't mishear.. he thought he made mistake with grammar.. btw, how did u know that phrase??
Andy.. no.. it wasn't wrong at all.. but the meaning of the sentence.. anyone who speaks Indonesian.. please do correct me if I'm wrong..
As far I know.. when a guy tells a girl "Aku suka kamu.".. it means that he likes her.. as in asking her to be his girlfriend..
So Andy.. I don't think it is a brilliant idea to say that to other girl.. esp. when your girlfriend is rite next to you.. (OMG.. I am still laughing my ass off..)
Jeannie.. don't get me wrong.. and please do tell him if you read this.. ^_^

P.S. : I'm trying to organize my time-table for next semester.. I feel like my head's going to explode.. -_-;;

Insomnia battle...updated

2009-02-18T21:17:00.005+01:00

no.. it's not battle between me and insomnia.. me? insomnia? it's so impossible..
I fall asleep easily as soon as my head touches my pillow.. hahahaha..
okay.. this is not sumthing to be proud of.. -_-;;
just wanna know what you guys think about this..
which one do you prefer..??

this one is the original version by Craig David..(kyaaaa... I'm fan-girling rite now..)

credit:uploader

And this one is the remake version.. yes it's in Korean.. I heard that he was asked to make the Korean version of the song.. btw, this guy's name is Wheesung.. He's supposed to be a famous singer or producer or whatever in Korea.. (Now with English subtitle..)

credit: wondersmurf

So.. who's the winner? for me.. I definitely go for Craig David.. hehehe.. I'm Craig-David-biased..
okay..okay.. I have to be fair..
The Korean version is not that bad.. he did do a great job.. but it just sounds funny.. I mean.. I'm used to the English version and I do not understand Korean like at all..
so it just sounds weird.. ^_^;
The English version.. what can I say.. It's Craig David for heaven's sake.. hahahaha.. I'm still biased..
What do you think??

P.S. : I have PC 4 exam tomorrow.. wish me luck.. I'm freaking out..T_T

P.P.S. : After listening for like 5 times straight.. the Korean version is really not bad at all.. since the song itself is pretty catchy..

r u addicted to facebook?

2009-02-16T20:25:00.003+01:00

I found this interesting article this morning.. yes.. like 2 hours before exam..
this is exactly why I'm so gonna fail successfully.. -_-;;
Why is it interesting??
Because I know a few people who are addicted to facebook.. hehehe.. you know who you are..
I do have a facebook account.. I do change my status quite often.. I do look at people's profile and photos.. but I don't think I'm addicted to facebook.. how about you?

Well.. like I already mentioned above.. I had exam today.. inorganic chemistry 1: chemistry of metals.. (I'm not sure if this is the rite translation)
I also had 2 exams last week.. physical chemistry 3 and organic chemistry 2 part 2..

do you guys notice.. my subjects are always ended with chemistry.. please do remind me.. why the heck do I study chemistry?

I think I'm gonna fail in pc 3.. since I did a lot of small mistakes.. well.. if you add up those small tiny mistakes.. they become one huge mistake.. well.. just wait and see..*finger crossed*
and guess what.. I passed the freaking oc 2 exam!!!!!!! It's freaking unbelievable.. the result was already online since like friday night.. as in midnight.. but my matriculation number was not on the list.. so I asked my other friends, who also took the exam.. they said theirs were on the list..
So I sent e-mail to my prof.. and he just replied it today.. he overlooked.. he meant that it was almost midnight.. then he wrote that I passed..
I almost died in happiness.. ok.. I didn't get a super great score.. but whatever!!!!!
I passed!!!!!!!!! o^_^o

P.S. : I still have exam on thursday tho.. and look what I'm doing.. well done!!!

one gloomy day..

2009-02-13T23:57:00.004+01:00

The girl walked out the lecture hall..
She smiled.. she laughed.. she laughed at herself..
She laughed at how stupid she could be..
She laughed at how she always took things way too easy..

The sun was shining brightly..
It was so bright that it melted the ice on the street..
But it wasn't enough to brighten up her gloominess..

She walked.. and walked..
She realized..
She had reached a point where she no longer had interest in her study..
She had no longer interest in being a researcher..
She had no longer motivation to finish her study..

She walked... and walked..
The "what if" questions were popping in her head..
What would it be.. if she weren't here..
What would it be.. if she didn't exist in this world..
What would it be.. if she weren't born..

She walked.. and walked..
Without even realized it.. her tears were slowly rolling down her cheeks..
She quickly hid her face behind her hair bangs.. afraid of people noticing that she was crying..
She tried to hold back her tears..

She is no longer a little child..
She has to be strong..
But she is still a baby in heart..
A baby who needs her mommy to comfort her..

P.S. : “Italy, and the spring and first love all together should suffice to make the gloomiest person happy.” ~ Bertrand Russel ~

What am I doing?

2009-02-09T23:48:00.002+01:00

Less than 10 hours I will have my 1st exam.. yes.. I will have exam-marathon starting tomorrow..
What on earth am I doing??
I do really have bad feelings.. T_T
I think I will forget all the things that I've tried to cram into my head..
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.........*panic mode on*
I really think I'm gonna have a mental breakdown tomorrow..
I just hope I won't bite people after the freaking exam...
so people.. get out of my way tomorrow.. for your own safety..*bite..bite..*
wish me luck!!!

P.S. : I got paper cuts all over my hands..

25 random things about me..

2009-02-08T23:58:00.002+01:00

it's just sumthing that I posted on facebook last Friday..

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.

1. Irvine say tagged me, so I think I'm supposed to do this.

2. I am procrastinating rite now.

3. I still have 4 exams, instead of studying.. I am doing this..-_-;;

4. I have no motivation to study.

5. I'm majoring in chemistry by the way.

6. But I suck at chemistry.

7. I live in Berlin.

8. But I hate being here.

9. I am suicidal.

10. I always think, the best way to kill my self.

11. But the process to commit suicide is always painful.

12. So I always chicken out of the idea of committing suicide.

13. I don't go out that often.

14. I rarely socialize with people.

15. I think I'm becoming an introvert person.

16. I have my own way of thinking.

17. I create my own world.

18. I get irritated easily.

19. I don't like annoying people.

20. My face doesn't lie when I get annoyed.

21. I need to lose weight.

22. But I suck at diet.

23. I really want to get rid of my chubby cheeks.

24. Although I realize that would never happen.

25. I'm gonna tag 25 people.

Here's the thing.. there are people who are worried about me.. esp. about the suicidal things.. I really am thankful.. it does mean that there are indeed people out there who still care about me..
but I think I have to make it clear..
the list was just sumthing that came out from a person who has 4 exams in the next two weeks and she definitely is freaking out..
so.. don't worry.. read number 12.. ^_^

P.S. : And that person is still procrastinating.. -_-;;

I feel so old..updated

2009-02-03T22:03:00.016+01:00

Okay.. for real.. just now.. I really knew what I wanted to write.. but..pufffff... it's gone..

Let's start by wishing happy birthday..
First...to Maria.. happy birthday.. I know that having birthday in the middle of exams week sucks.. and attending a 8-o'clock-in-the-morning-lecture on your birthday is not a really good idea.. but still.. hope u enjoy your birthday.. Gosh..you're still 20.. I feel so freaking old...

Next..to Cho Kyuhyun..

Gosh.. this guy is a lot prettier than me..-_-;;

I don't know him personally.. but I'm really such a huuuuuge fan of his voice.. his voice really melts my heart.. okay.. I guess I'm a bit exaggerating.. (fan-girling mode on) Gosh... he's still 21 and he has a great voice... >_< Here are some videos of him.. Enjoy!!

1. A whole new world by Charice Pempenco and Kyuhyun
This is the first time I saw him.. My cousin showed me this video..well he wanted to show me the girl though.. when I first saw this I was like.. wow.. that girl is freaking awesome.. and.. the korean guy is also not bad..

credit: hannon09housho

2. Kyuhyun - Snail
I just love his voice in this song.. never get tired listening to this...

credit: XtinaMaria

3. Super Junior KRY with Dong Hae sing I have a lover
I like it when he sings the high notes..

credit: XtinaMaria

4. She's gone by super junior
I have no idea what they're singing.. my fave part is when he hit the high notes.. at 3:48 u can hear the "aaaaaa...".. that's him.. hehehe..

credit: kpopcorner

I think I'd better stop now.. I still need to review a few things.. a few?? I still HAVE to review LOTSA things..

P.S. : Nita... congratulations on your "new home".. I'm waiting for the house warming party..^_^

I'm a BIT of a procrastinator..

2009-01-31T00:23:00.003+01:00

You Are a Bit of a Procrastinator

You tend to get things done in a timely manner, but you can't help but put off tasks you hate.
You have no problem getting the fun or easy stuff done. You generally enjoy taking care of responsibilities.

However, if a task arises that you dislike, it might get shelved for a long time.
And even though it's human nature to procrastinate, your procrastination is hindering your productivity.

Take a look at the things you are putting off doing. Do they really need to be done?
Complete any task that's important. The other stuff you're procrastinating is probably not worth doing.

Are You a Procrastinator?

P.S. : I am now procrastinating..-_-;;

To whom it may concern..

2009-01-29T22:55:00.002+01:00

So.. I wanna clarify sumthing..
One of my friend from uni.. should I say her name? well..let say her name is Jeannie.. Jeannie once told me.. that sumtimes when another friend of mine.. let say he's John.. when John talked to me.. I gave what-do-u-want-from-me-look.. or easier to say.. annoyed-look..
Then I asked Jeannie.. did I really do that? And she said.. yes..
I was surprised.. because.. I have never had any intentions to give that kinda look..
Then I told Nita about this.. and I asked her again about this just now.. (just wanna make sure ;P)

Me: Nit.. do I really that often give annoyed-look?
Nita: yes..

So.. here I am..trying to clarify this..
I do have to admit.. that I do get annoyed easily.. I can't stand annoying people..who can?
When I'm not in a good mood.. when I'm in a really sensitive mode.. it's a lot easier for me to get annoyed.. a tiny simple annoying thing can get me on my nerves..
but I'm not a type of person who holds a grudge..
and I do admit that I can't avoid giving "the look".. most of times I don't realize that I give that kinda look.. I guess I was born with "the look".. so people.. you guys just have to bear with it..
So people.. when I gave that kinda look when you guys are talking to me.. please.. please.. please.. understand.. I really don't mean to be rude or anything.. it just happens subconsciously.. I can't control it..

And of course.. I wanna apologize in advance when I give you guys "the look"..
and John.. sorry for giving "the look".. I've never meant to do that.. ^^

P.S. : “Good advice is often annoying - bad advice never is” ~French Proverb~

Pieces of me..

2009-01-22T22:17:00.007+01:00

Whew.. not a good start in a new year..
hehehe.. I'm becoming a bad blogger.. and also a bad diary writer.. -_-;;
maybe I should add this to my resolution's list..==> write my blog more often..
So here's update about my life..
The exams are coming in like 2 weeks? 3 weeks?
I don't have motivation to study..
I hate the fact that I study chemistry..
I'm sick of learning things that have sumthing to do with chemistry..
My mood is really like a roller coaster.. In one minute I feel so happy.. another minute I feel so freaking depressed...
I really do worry about my sanity...I think I'm losing my mind..
The fact that I decided to go to Germany is a proof that I've lost my mind..
well.. I'm here already.. what can I do..??

Ou.. I really wanna read this book..

credit: seoulbeats

he is no Shakespeare.. he is no Charles Dickens.. he is one of member of the south korean hip hop (is really hip hop??) group, Epik High.. he's Tablo.. he graduated from Stanford..majoring in English literature.. so.. this is why I'm so freaking curious to read his book.. I think the book is a compilation of short stories from his time spent in US.. aaaaa.. I really wanna read this book...

Speaking of Epik High.. here's another great concept of their music video..

credit: wondersmurf

So... last sunday I was skyp-ing with my mom and my cousin.. and guess what... I'm officially getting fatter.. T_T even my mom said my cheeks now are a lot chubbier.. compare to when I was in Hawaii... WTH????

P.S. : “The second day of a diet is always easier than the first. By the second day you're off it.” ~Jackie Gleason~

2009.. here we come..

2009-01-04T19:46:00.003+01:00

Happy New Year 2009 everyone.. !! It's a bit late.. I know.. but I was away.. I spent my new year's eve and new year in Prague..
I'll write about my trip next time..
Let's talk about new year resolution..
my 2009 resolution is.......*thinking*
my2009 resolution is........* still thinking*
ok.. my 2009 resolutions are...

learning a new language.. either Japanese or Korean.. although I'm fully aware that Mandarin is a lot waaaayy more important.. but I gave up learned Mandarin long time ago..
improving my ~~German~~ English..
being more diligent..
trying to be a nice person..
losing weight.. -_-;;
trying to complete all my resolutions..

P.S. : “We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year's Day.” ~Edith Lovejoy Pierce~

Still sick..but getting better...

2008-12-29T20:52:00.005+01:00

I think it runs in the family.. My cousin was back yesterday.. although he told me he would be back on 29th.. but then he told me he was wrong..
I told him that I'll leave on 30th.. but then I told him I was wrong.. I'll leave on 31st..
We do have problem with remembering dates.. hahaha

Anyway.... I'm getting better.. although not fully recovered.. but I don't have fever anymore..
Since I told my cousin I'm sick... I still have cold though.. and cough a bit..
He made soup for me.. awwwww.. I'm so touched..

What am I doing?? I should start packing stuff..

P.S. : I really am a procrastinator...-_-;;

Merry Christmas..cough..cough..sniff..

2008-12-26T22:23:00.005+01:00

It's second day of Christmas.. so I'm wishing everyone a very merry Christmas.. How was your Christmas? Hope it was a lot better than mine..

So.. I spend my Christmas eve alone.. went to the church all by myself.. I really missed my mom at that time.. and I knew that my mom was sick.. she got a really bad flu.. :(

On Christmas day.. I woke up in the morning and I was like.. "this can't be happening to me.. esp. not today.." I got a really bad sore throat.. and I really needed my voice.. and my head hurt so bad.. I couldn't even get up.. It even hurt when I coughed.. my first thought was.. I got freaking flu..
Question.. is it possible that my mom infected me via text message?? yea rite...
But then I managed to get up and get ready..
And of course I gave my best to sing.. oh come on.. I've been practicing for like 2 months? I couldn't give up just because of my freaking sore throat..
In the end.. I couldn't reach the high notes.. but surprisingly.. I could reach the low notes that usually I couldn't.. hahaha..
And I stayed until late even I wasn't feeling so well.. I even took picture with "Afgan".. kyaaaaaa... Afgan.... (I'm in my 2nd year of my uni but still fan-girling..WTH??)

And today.. here I am lying on my bed with 38°C fever and writing these things..
I really should sleep now...

P.S.: I want my mommy!!! T_T

My grown-up Christmas list..

2008-12-12T12:49:00.007+01:00

I really love this song.. I've heard this song since last year.. but I never get tired of this song.. I really love the lyrics..
Here's the lyric.. I really wrote the lyrics when I listened to this song..
I know.. I can just google it... but since I was a little girl I like to write the song lyrics.. while I was listening to the song..practicing my listening skill.. hehehe..

My grown up Christmas list
Michael Buble's version

Do you remember me?
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you with childhood fantasy
Well, I'm all grown up now
Can you still help somehow?
I'm not a child, but my heart still can dream

So here's my life long list
My grown-up Christmas list
Not for myself, but for a world in need

No more lives torn apart
That wars will never start
And time would heal all hearts
Every man would have a friend
That right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown-up Christmas list

What is this illusion called the innocence of youth?
Maybe only in that blind belief can we ever find the truth...

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
Every man would have a friend
That right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown-up Christmas list
This is my only life long wish
This is my grown-up Christmas list..

Credit: theMONhead

P.S.: Happy sing along everyone..!! Please do tell me if I made mistakes with the lyrics..

walk the tightrope and then fall..

2008-12-09T13:17:00.002+01:00

You Should Walk the Tightrope

Any subject you study, you aim to master. You enjoy being the best.
When you're good at something, you like to show off your skills.

You're the type of person who would practice years to walk the tightrope.
And you'd love the glory you'd get from walking it in front of a crowd.

What Circus Act Should You Perform?

P.S.:"Time is a circus, always packing up and moving away."~Ben Hecht~

Before I go to sleep..

2008-12-06T00:19:00.002+01:00

You Are Flannel Pajamas

You seek comfort above everything else. You rather feel good than look good.
You are a very relaxed person, especially when you're surrounded by your favorite things and people.

You are a homebody. Home is the place where you can truly be yourself.
You are likely to wear pajamas a lot. In fact, you often change into your pj's the minute you get home!

What Kind of Pajamas Are You?

P.S.: I'm off to bed..

Happy world AIDS day...

2008-12-01T22:59:00.004+01:00

I have physical chemistry 3 exam within 9 hours..
and look what I'm doing..
yes..way to go!!!!

FYI.. today is world AIDS day...

Do you guys wear a read ribbon??
I do.. I have a read ribbon on my bag.. and I'm proud of it..
I always want to be a volunteer in AIDS campaign activity.. really.. I wanna get involved in AIDS campaign..
does anyone know how? please let me know..
I attended once AIDS seminar when I was in high school.. and I think it was interesting..
I knew more about HIV and AIDS..

What is HIV? HIV stands for Human Immunodeficiency Virus. The virus attacks the immune system of the body until the body cannot fight off diseases. When it has reached this point..it is considered that the person is developed AIDS. So.. HIV and AIDS are not the same..

really.. I shouldn't do this.. did I mention that I have exam within less than 12 hours???

P.S. : I'm so gonna CRAFT (Can't Remember A Freaking Thing) tomorrow...

saying good bye to organic lab..

2008-11-27T22:32:00.005+01:00

today is my last day of organic lab..
I don't know what I'm feeling... relieved? happy?
I might sound crazy.. but I think I'm gonna miss it..
I'm gonna miss the boring time when I had to heat my mixture for 5 freaking hours..
I'm gonna miss doing the distillation, recrystallization...
I'm gonna miss the disappointment when I didn't get my product..
I'm gonna miss how I was so freakin' irritated when I had to work with bromine..
I'm gonna miss the smell of bromine..
I'm gonna miss how I was so scared and stressful when I had oral test..
I'm gonna miss how I got so confused with the spectrum..
I'm gonna miss the hectic time when I had to write lab reports..
I'm gonna miss how happy I was when my NMR spectra showed that I got the product and it was clean..

Speaking of NMR spectra.. I got lost again today after delivering my NMR sample to the NMR people downstairs.. hahaha..
I've already got lost twice in one day last week.. hahaha.. that's so typically me..
I get lost easily..

Ou.. yesterday.. one of the assistant said something that made me speechless..
assistant: I think you have the product..well done!
me: (speechless)
It was the first time someone said well done to me for sumthing I do in lab..
I'm kinda proud of myself tho..
and once again today.. I got pretty clean products.. although I'm pretty sure the yield is not that good..

well..it's over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my organic lab is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now I have to write 4 freaking lab reports in English.. aaaaaaaaaa.........

my last experiment involved this..

I stayed until 7:30 pm because of this..

P.S. : “A moment lasts all of a second, but the memory lives on forever.” ~unknown~

I'm running out of time..

2008-11-25T23:08:00.004+01:00

for real.. I feel like time is really a sprinter..
I only have 2 days left.. then my organic lab is gonna be over..
and I have less than 1 week to cram all those electrochemistry things into my head..
I still have to write 4 lab reports.. and in English.. which I have never done it before..
I still have 2 exams waiting for me in 2 weeks..
see.. I'm really running out of time..
but what the hell am I doing rite now?
yes.. updating my blog..
way to go!!!

P.S. : “Time is like a handful of sand- the tighter you grasp it, the faster it runs through your fingers” ~unknown~

totally tired..

2008-11-20T23:41:00.004+01:00

09:00 am
The professor was talking.. It was raining outside.. I was sitting inside.. nice and warm.. I didn't pay any attentions.. I was staring at the rain.. daydreaming..

09:55 am
The professor was still talking.. It was still raining outside.. I was still sitting inside.. nice and warm.. I still didn't pay any attentions.. I was watching the clock.. yawning..

10:30 am
The weird tutor was writing on the board and talking at the same time.. I was copying what he was writing without trying to understand..

11:10 am
I was on my way to organic building.. preparing myself for the hell hours in lab..

05:05 pm
I had an oral test with one of assistant..my last one.. suddenly stuck in a bad situation..

05:55 pm
I was standing in front of the rotary evaporator.. trying to remove the freaking diethyl ether from my substance.. I was thinking whether I should go to maths lecture or not..

07:05 pm
I left my lab.. went down to grab my jacket..

07:40 pm
Finally.. I was home..

P.S. : "Rivers know this: there is no hurry. We shall get there some day." ~Winnie the Pooh~

Exhausted..

2008-11-19T22:17:00.003+01:00

Monday..... 7:15 pm
Tuesday..... 6:30 pm
Wednesday.....(which is today) 7:35 pm

The times when I left my lab..

P.S.: "Our fatigue is often caused not by work, but by worry, frustration and resentment." ~Dale Carnegie~

I'm alive..

2008-11-15T15:30:00.003+01:00

Yes.. it's me.. I'm alive... hehehe..
Nothing happened.. well.. I let Christian do it first tho.. haha.. thx Christian..
but for real.. I was like so worried.. what if I didn't add enuff sodium disulfite.. what if it would really explode..what if.. what if..
well.. here I am...writing.. I'm okay..I'm okay.. hahahaha
My mom is finally flying back to Indo.. yuhuuu...
She's so happy.. she really wants to go back to Indo.. hahaha..
Lately I feel so terrible.. I really become a super freaking lazy person.. well.. I am lazy.. but really.. I'm super duper freaking lazy lately..
I don't have any motivations.. I don't really care anymore.. it's like that I don't give a damn on my study anymore.. wonder why?
I just feel I've reached my limit already.. I've had enough with the whole study things.. I'm sick of studying..
I'm bored with my life..

P.S.: “Are you bored with life? Then throw yourself into some work you believe in with all your heart, live for it, die for it, and you will find happiness that you had thought could never be yours” ~Dale Carnegie~

Boom....!!!!!!

2008-11-12T20:46:00.003+01:00

Phew.. things always don't go as I have planned.. does it happen to everyone? or is it just me?
So.. I really wanted to finish my experiment today..
but what can I do... sumthing happened.. and I can tell you it's not a good one..
here's the thing.. my mixture happened to be really dark brownish.. I dunno why.. my friend's is a bit dark yellowish.. he has the same experiment too..
So.. we have to add sodium disulfite to the mixture.. to deactivate the freaking bromine.. we have to add it until the color of the solution doesn't change anymore..
my freaking solution is already dark brown.. how the heck am I supposed to know it does change or not???????
and here comes the interesting part..
if you add it too much..sulfur dioxide gas might be developed when I give acid to the solution.. which is the next step..
but.. if the sodium disulfite is not enough.. the bromine might react with ether,which I will use for separating the product, and form HIGH EXPLOSIVE peroxides..
Nice.... -_-;
I would say.. I'll go with the first option.. I've spent 20 years of my life in Jakarta anyway.. I believe I've inhaled sodium dioxide before.. from the emission of the vehicles in Jakarta.. hehehe..
well.. let's see what will happen tomorrow.. will I explode my lab??

P.S. : “To achieve great things, two things are needed; a plan, and not quite enough time.” ~ Leonard Bernstein~

Yummieee...muffins..

2008-11-08T12:05:00.004+01:00

You Are a Cherry Muffin

You are very friendly and sweet. You love to socialize.

You have a bit of a fire in your heart, and you secretly love adventure.

You are well known for speaking your mind. You tell people exactly what you think.
However, you're so nice when you're honest, no one really cares!

Even though you're down to earth, you're not exactly the girl or guy next door.
You are actually quite worldly and sophisticated. You are well traveled and well read.

What Kind of Muffin Are You?

P.S.: I wanna bake muffins..

Just keep waiting..

2008-11-05T21:51:00.003+01:00

So.. not much happened today.. I mean.. I only had to wait for my reaction..
I had to heat the mixture for 5 freaking hours.. all I could do is waiting.. and waiting.. and waiting..
I even got the chance to have coffee break.. twice....
but in the end.. I needed more time.. So the assistant told me I could do it in her lab.. so I did it..
I was finished at 7 pm.. now I'm so freaking tired..
I haven't done my homeworks.. I haven't learned for my oral test tomorrow..
and now here I am.. telling all these stories.. yea rite.. way to go Meta!!
I keep asking myself.. why.. why do I study chemistry?? whyyyyyyyy?????
But actually.. I really can't believe it.. that I can make it this far.. I mean.. I'm in my 4th semester already.. I'm proud of myself..
In the other hand.. I don't feel like I'm a 4th semester student.. I feel like I can do nothing.. really.. I really feel like I haven't learned a single thing.. I still don't understand a lot of things.. (deep sigh) -_-;

P.S. : I'm going to see Keane tomorrow..

My cute monster..

2008-11-04T23:33:00.003+01:00

What Your Cute Monster Says About You

You are a simply happy person. You still view the world with a childlike innocence.
You have an easy going attitude, and you value harmony. You love freely and inspire others to love.

You inner demon is frailty. You are easily beaten down by life.
People think you're cute because you are optimistic. Your outlook on life is charming.

The Cute Monster Test

P.S.: Somehow it's true.. but I don't think I'm optimistic..

I got you under my skin..

2008-10-31T23:35:00.006+01:00

yea rite.. whatever that's supposed to mean..
So..here's the thing..
I've been listening to this DBSK lately.. surprisingly..
They just released their new album.. it's called Mirotic.. and it happened to be their first single from the new album also..
Somehow the song keeps playing in my head..
Here's the video..

credit: sujudbskfan

However...I just found out that Sarah Connor also just released her new album.. I don't know much about her..
Anyway.. her single is called Under My Skin..
Here's the video..

credit: vanie33233

What I'm trying to say is.. it's the same freaking song.. I'm not gonna talk about plagiarism or anything.. I'm sure there must be an explanation about this.. Honestly I don't give a damn..
I'm just wondering.. which one do you like better??
I'd say I like the boys' version better.. from the voice.. the music video.. although I really can't stand the boys' wardrobe.. what's with the too much exposure of the body???? and the bling2??
To all Sarah Connor's fans out there.. no offense guys.. it's just a matter of taste.. ^_^

P.S. : Today I saw 17 people (18 including me) who wore converse chuck shoes.. aaah.. I'm in love with converse..

It's all because of bromine..

2008-10-30T23:20:00.003+01:00

Bromine..what is bromine actually?
Why do I have to work with bromine?
Why am I always in bad mood everytime I have to work with that?
And guess what.. I still have to deal with the freaking bromine again..
Aarrrrggghhh...
Gosh.. why does the experiments look so complicated??
Really.. I don't think I can make it..
Why am I so pessimistic?
Really.. I'm so freaking stressed out..
I only have 3 weeks left.. and I still have 3 or 4 experiments..or 5?
What should I do???
You know what.. I do feel studying chemistry is such a huuuuuuuge mistake.. esp. for a clumsy and freaking slow person like me.. -_-'

P.S. : “An optimist is a person who sees a green light everywhere, while a pessimist sees only the red stoplight. . . The truly wise person is colorblind.” ~Albert Schweitzer ~

So little time so much to do..

2008-10-29T21:28:00.003+01:00

Here are some things that I should (or must) do..

Listen to Keane..I have to get to know their songs.. or else I'd look like an idiot standing in their concert.. only knowing "everybody's changing"
Write lab report.. the due is like on next Monday..
Try to learn chemistry in English.. starting next week the assistants in charge only speak English..
Prepare the things I need for exchange.. (speechless)

P.S.: Why do I have a feeling that I won't be able to finish all my experiments within 3 weeks?

I'm tired..

2008-10-27T20:35:00.003+01:00

I'm tired of my so-called-life..
I'm tired of waking up in the morning..
I'm tired of sitting in U-Bahn..
I'm tired of listening to lecture..
I'm tired of spending hours and hours in lab..
I'm tired of doing the whole experiments..
I'm tired of working with hazardous, inflammable, carcinogen substances..
I'm tired of writing lab reports..
I'm tired...

P.S. : “I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.” ~Fannie Lou Hamer~

I'm in a deep confusion...

2008-10-25T11:26:00.002+02:00

So.. I am really in a deep confusion..
About the exchange thing.. I think I'm not gonna do it.. at least to US..
Maybe to Australia.. but I don't know..my mom offered me something really interesting..
She finally let me fly back to Indonesia..
this offer made me so confused.. I really want to go back to Indonesia..
I dunno.. I can't think clearly rite now..
Lately I feel like I don't know myself anymore..
It feels like my soul is taking a time off.. it's flying somewhere else..leaving my body all by itself..
There must be something really wrong with me.. but I just don't know what it is..

Yesterday I went out for lunch with Nita and Rafe.. We had sushi.. since I was craving for Japanese food.. We ended up in Hugendubel..
On the way home.. me and Nita had a so-not-important-discussion.. Nita insisted me to say "Duh?!" over and over again.. she wanted to know the rite intonation.. what the??
This kind of thing makes us really get along.. She told me..she would practice at home.. well.. I just wish her brother a lot of luck.. hehehe..

P.S. : Ou..Ou.. Today Sandra and Denio are saying the infamous 2 words.. "I do"... Congratz guys!!

Happy birthday sis...

2008-10-22T22:00:00.008+02:00

Today is my sis' birthday..
Happy Birthday sis...
although I cannot be there.. I did send u a birthday card..
I had to pay 4 freaking bucks.. If the postman messed up.. I'd beat him up!!!

Since it's my sis b'day.. let's talk a bit bout her.. She's my only one sister.. we're five years apart.. although she doesn't act like she is 5 years older.. most people say that we're look alike.. We rarely fight.. maybe when we were little, we did fight..
we share stories..gossips.. secrets.. (well.. at least I think we share secrets..or maybe it's just me who keeps telling her my secret??)
I still remember that when she was still in Indonesia.. I was still in my 2nd year of high school back then..
we did hang out a lot.. We went to the mall.. had lunch.. went to movies without knowing which film we should see..
What I miss the most is.. We used to go to Planet Hollywood like a lot.. having dinner.. with my cousin or her best friends.. or even with my mom..
Aaaaah.. those days.. I really miss those days..
One time we (my sis, me, and 2 of our friends) went to this Cosmo Girl of the Year event.. we had the chance to meet this guy..Jonathan Frizzy.. so my sis voluntarily took our picture with him.. although we said.. we could ask other people to take it so that she could also be in the picture too.. and she was like.. "oh no.. it's fine.. " after we said thank you and stuff.. my sister was like.."wait.. now it's my turn.." what the...???? so..we had group picture.. and she was alone with the guy.. nice one sis..^_^'
I guess I have to stop here.. I can write a lot about her.. hehehe..

P.S. : “For there is no friend like a sister, in calm or stormy weather, to cheer one on the tedious way, to fetch one if one goes astray, to lift one if one totters down, to strengthen whilst one stands.” ~Christina G. Rossetti~

Shake it off..shake it off...

2008-10-17T23:25:00.011+02:00

I'm not a fan of Agnes Monica.. but I do really think she did a great job in Asia Song Festival 2008..
This performance is freakin' awesome..
I watch this like over and over again.. but never get tired of it..
I can't believe I'm gonna say this.. (take a deep breath...)
I'm proud of her!!!! She rocks!!!

credit: blastoop
P.S.: The song keeps playing in my head, although I don't really understand what she was saying..^_^'

Is there really a pumpkin latte?

2008-10-14T19:09:00.003+02:00

You Are a

Pumpkin Latte

You are always up for a celebration. You are a very festive person.
You look forward to every holiday, and you are nostalgic for good times after they're over.

You appreciate the small things that make life special. You love little treats.
You often look at the world with childlike wonder. There's so much to enjoy!

What Flavor Latte Are You?

P.S.: I want my tall soy latte..

sleepless nights..

2008-10-12T00:44:00.004+02:00

I'm sick.. I have cold and a bit of sore throat.. I couldn't sleep well at night.. The first night was really bad.. I'm used to sleep without noises.. but here.. people's walking noise could wake me up.. and maybe it was because of jetlag too... Then last night.. my sis called me at 3 am.. just to tell me sumthin that I already knew.. I could barely remember what she said actually.. hahaha.. Hopefully I can sleep like a baby tonite.. I really need a good peaceful sleep..

P.S. : "Sometimes the most productive one can do is to sleep." ~unknown~

Counting the hours..

2008-10-08T14:51:00.000+02:00

I'm flying back to Berlin tonite..
I'm flying back to my boring life..
I'm flying back to reality..

I feel so sad..
I feel so miserable..
I am scared..

Why is it so hard to leave?
Why is it so hard to face that my holiday is over?
Why is it so hard to get back on track?

P.S.: "Those to whom we say farewell, are welcomed by others." ~unknown~

Another joke..

2008-10-08T07:49:00.004+02:00

credit: bursaartis

cinta.. so you've learned how to lip-sync..but please..stop touching ur mic.. it won't fall dear.. we all know that you were lyp-syncing anyway..

P.S.: Dammit! The song keeps playing in my head...

we love goofing around..

2008-09-26T12:04:00.001+02:00

P.S. : "A sister is a little bit of childhood that can never be lost." ~Marion C. Garretty~

so many questions...

2008-09-26T00:22:00.001+02:00

I've been thinking a lot these days.. about many things..
so many questions popped up in my head..
about student exchange.. should I really do it? or at least try? and where? us?
and then.. I keep wondering.. if this is really what I want to do? or to be? in Germany? study chemistry?
the more I think about it.. I'm getting more and more confused..
and as always.. I don't get the rite answers..
even when my mom asked me..what I will do after I graduate..
I couldn't give her an answer..
being a chemist?? what do actually a chemist do?? spend the whole life in lab??
really... what will I do after I graduate??
well.. after I get my friggin' bachelor degree.. I think I will continue study.. and get a master degree.. rite???
but then?? what should I write in the occupation column? chemist? scientist? researcher?
what if I don't want to?
Am I wrong if I do something else that is not related to chemistry??
Is it okay if I want to be a designer??
Is it okay if I want to be a stylist??
Is it okay if I want to be a photographer??
so many questions yet no answers..

P.S. : "He who asks a question is a fool for five minutes; he who does not ask a question remains a fool forever." ~Chinese proverbs~

The freaking TOEFL

2008-09-19T22:04:00.002+02:00

Aaaaaaaaaaaaa......
I have my TOEFL test tomorrow..
I'm dead..I'm dead.. (panic mode on)
Although I don't have that kinda pressure.. I'm still stressed out.. well.. I have to get 100 points.. but I mean it's ok if I don't get 100.. it's not the end of the world.. it only means that I cannot apply for exchange.. but my mom said it's ok..
the weird thing is.. I'm not that excited anymore with the whole exchange things..
but still.. I'm freaking out.. for real..
aaarrrgghh.. I can't think..
why do I have bad feelings??
I should sleep now..

P.S.: Wish me luck..!!! All I need is luck.. really.. -_-'

My mom is here...

2008-09-16T19:45:00.003+02:00

Yippie.. my mom is finally here... she came on Saturday..
she brought lotsa lotsa things.. as in clothes and foods... ou.. kue cucur!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it was supposed to be cleaning day.. so we kinda sped up so that we could dig in those clothes..
I have to admit.. they were like a lot.. I don't think I need to buy clothes for the next 2 years..or 3.. but I still need jacket and coat tho.. ou.. and shoes.. hehehehe..
the problem is.. I really don't know when I should wear them.. well.. I'll figure out later.. Maybe I leave some of them here...

So.. on Friday we went to Cheesecake Factory.. finally.. yuhuuuu... and I had my first cocktail..legally.. the food was great.. we also bought cheesecake.. it's not official until I eat the cheesecake.. there's still one in the fridge.. it was sooooooo good.. I could eat the whole slice by myself.. even 2.. but for the sake of my diet.. hahahaha.. we always eat it together..

TOEFL is coming.. dammit!! I'm dead..I'm dead... is there anyone out there who wants to lend me his/her English ability just for one day..just for 4 freaking hours???? pleaseeee...pleaseeee... I'm begging you...

P.S.: It's getting colder and colder each day.. Is summer over already???

my so-not-busy-weekend..

2008-09-08T20:29:00.000+02:00

It was a quite normal weekend.. we went grocery shopping.. and of course we stopped by to buy bubble tea.. then we had brunch.. we made typical american breakfast.. bacon, sausage, and waffle with strawberry butter.. we went to the movie.. We saw Journey to the Center of the Earth.. in 3D.. it was ok.. I mean it was fun watching film in 3D.. although.. the kid behind me said that it was the best movie ever.. hihihi..
On Sunday we went to the church in the morning.. then.. off we went to Indonesian restaurant "Jayakarta" in Berkeley.. yippie.. I really miss Indonesian food.. We had even already thought of what we would eat since the night before..
We had pempek palembang and siomay bandung as appetizers.. then I had bakwan malang and es doger.. yummm.. my sister had nasi rames and nasi bungkus for my bro in law..
Ou..ou.. We also had nasi goreng ikan asin plus pete.. and mie tek tek.. (take away) huaaaaaa... I wanna go to Indo..!!!!!!!!!
I just realized it's almost 9/11.. I saw this movie called United 93.. it is named after the flight that was hijacked and supposed to hit the white house.. but the passenger fought back..so it didn't hit the White House but in the end it crashed somewhere.. it was so sad..
in conclusion (effect from toefl learning) it was an ordinary weekend.. but it was still fun..

P.S.: I demand kue cucur from my mom!!!!!

one busy long weekend..

2008-09-01T18:42:00.007+02:00

Yes.. I did have one busy effective weekend.. it's labor day on Monday.. (September 1st) and also a friend of my sister came..it's my sis' high school friend. he said he wanted to refresh his mind.. should I say his name? well.let's just call him Mr. B...

So I had neighbor for 4 days..it meant that I had to share bathroom.
FYI..because of his existence I was having trouble with my stomach.. u knoe.. the business in toilet..
hahaha.. so.. here's what we did when he was here..

Thursday
Mr. B came.. we had a chit-chat thing.. well not we.. they did (my sis, her husband, and Mr. B). After having dinner we went to..err.. BevMo or sumthin'..to buy some wine and beers..
When we were ready to pay.. Mr. B did sumthin' hilarious.. He pushed the wrong cart.. but when he realized it was not ours. He just said.. "hey.. this is not ours" in a-so-not-guilty-tone and left the cart there and went to find ours.. my sister and I were laughing so hard.. I mean.. it can happen to everyone.. but the funny thing is that he just said it in flat tone. Then we went to the supermarket next to BevMo.. Smart and Find or sumthin'.. My sister wanted to take a look.. since it's just opened.. we wanted to buy oranges also.. Mr. B took one orange..but my sis said.. "we can't just buy one orange?".. but then in the end.. we only buy 2 oranges.. hahaha.. I knoe we're such a weirdo.. So we went home.. and my sis had to show Mr. B the way.. here's the so-not-important-conversation between them..
My Sis: Left!! Left!!
Mr. B: How? It's right turn only!!!
Then we played Taboo.. My sister was dying to play Taboo since I was here.. but it needs 4 people.. I guess.. na ja.. It was freaking funny.. since it was our (Mr. B and I) first time playing it..
We were laughing until our stomache hurt.. My fave part is the drawing... hihihi.. unfortunately we lost.. I teamed up with my sis..

Friday
Since my sis and my bro in law worked.. so Mr. B and I went to book store.. Mr. B has this reading-addiction lately.. hihi.. good for you! OMG.. I'm dying to read Midnight Sun..
Then we had lunch in Korean restaurant.. guess what.. I knew most of the songs which were being played there.. hahaha.. I guess I'm quite addicted to korean music lately..
we ordered pizza for dinner.. and we played Taboo.. again.. but this time I teamed up with my bro in law.. We won!! It was still fun.. The part that we had to explain the word using the purple doll was pretty hard.. you have to use your creativity..

Saturday
We played mini golf today.. It was my first time playing mini golf.. it was really fun actually.. but thanx to the freaking sun.. it was sooooooooooooooooo hot.. that was the reason why I was cranky.. I hate being exposed to the sun.. although my name means sun.. but..me and the sun.. it is really not a good idea.. I feel like biting people when the weather is too hot..
ou..ou.. another so-not-important-conversation between my sis and Mr. B
Mr. B: I'll give you 50 bucks if you can do hole in one
My sis: (Hit the ball.. and she did it!) ==> I'm pretty she didn't know what on earth hole in one is.
Mr. B: ...(speechless)

After one long hot day.. we went home.. took a nap.. getting ready for karaoke nite.. yuhuuu!!!
It was really fun.. except for the part that I was being scolded by my bro in law.. -_-'

We ended the day with dinner in PPQ.. we had to wait for 1 hour or so tho..

Sunday
We went to the church in the morning.. then had lunch at home.. we still had the crab and pizza leftovers.. the we went bowling.. I didn't play tho.. My sis did pretty good at the 1st round.. but not at the 2nd. Hehe.. Then we went back home.. we needed to get ready for tonite's dinner.. (we as in me and my sis).. It was my first fine dining experience.. yuhuuu.. we went to Le Colonial in SF..

Dammit.. the food was awesome.. for me the dessert was the highlight.. hehehe..

look at the hearts..

then my sister wanted to take a walk in Union Square.. we took some pictures..since we don't have that sophisticated camera.. the pictures are not that super sophisticated.. ?????

So.. that was my busy long weekend..

P.S.: Happy Labour Day!

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Bali Trip..

Ssssssshhhhhhh!!!!

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Internet oh internet..

I'd love to work for Disney..

Happy 3rd Anniversary!

Welcome 2011..

Sweet memories..

Bachelor of Science...

My birthday is coming..-_-;;

Happy 2nd Anniversary..

Happy Birthday Mom!!

Geneva Day 1

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another February baby..

Procrastinating...

Here I am again..

I need hot chocolate..

One day with Marc Jacobs

Meri kurisimasu!!

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gloom..

I'm gonna dress up as a cute puppy..

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Jakarta here I come..

I'm an ice cream sandwich..

one more to go..

Postman Pat

Exams..

I don't care..

Again and again..

I'm an intellect??

I'm such a fan girl..

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Sempurna Battle

*Bite..Bite..*

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Vortrag..T_T

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Sorry..sorry..*updated*

Aku suka kamu..

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r u addicted to facebook?

one gloomy day..

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25 random things about me..

I feel so old..*updated*

I'm a BIT of a procrastinator..

To whom it may concern..

Pieces of me..

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Merry Christmas..*cough..cough..sniff..*

My grown-up Christmas list..

walk the tightrope and then fall..

Before I go to sleep..

Happy world AIDS day...

saying good bye to organic lab..

I'm running out of time..

totally tired..

Exhausted..

I'm alive..

Bite..Bite..

Sorry..sorry..updated

Insomnia battle...updated

I feel so old..updated

Merry Christmas..cough..cough..sniff..